Well, THIS explains it
Engaged Idealists are extroverted and helpful. Others find them to be very congenial and inspiring - especially as they are always willing to see the best in the other person. Their humour, their energy and their optimism attract other people. Engaged Idealists are very good at communicating and are good at convincing and firing on others. That is why it is a matter of course that they often take over the leading role in groups. This personality type often produces very charismatic persons.
Engaged Idealists have an unusually strong ability to empathise. They are tolerant and generous towards others; they sometimes tend to idealise their friends. They always try to suit everybody and want their relationships to be harmonious and satisfactory. To achieve this, they are prepared to invest a great deal and to put their requirements last. As Engaged Idealists are very considerate, there is the danger of them sacrificing and overexerting themselves for others. In their job, they therefore have to be very careful not to develop a burnout syndrome.
Engaged Idealists are reliable, well organised and love structuring complicated situations. They have difficulty accepting criticism; they quickly feel hurt and misunderstood. Their perfectionism also influences their love life - they look for the perfect relationship for life. Once they have made their decision, they are faithful, well-balanced and loving partners. However, should they get involved with the wrong person, it can happen that they allow themselves to be exploited for a long time before they end the relationship.
So yeah. Apparently I'm the emotional doormat type. It makes so much fucking sense now. I wonder how I can fix that? Ugh. It doesn't help that my mom wants me to end up with a doctor or a nurse. Something about a person who'll take care of me because I'm such a flake.
I may have fights with her, but I tend to listen to my mom these days.
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So geeked out in a major way over the past week. Even though it's wrapped up, rediscovering Dave's Long Box is a blessing. Because of this post and this post most especially.
My sister compounded it, however, when she sucked me into this YouTube series After Hours. My favorite so far, however are the short promos that ape the Mac/PC commercial. Here's a taste:
I'm Batman
And now I'm watching the entire series instead of working. To be fair, I'm not feeling well and am incapable of thinking right now. So hooray for me, I have a reason to dick around.