yes, this is what you think it is
seriously starting to questiong everything. yes, this is a negative post so get ready for a whale of soppy text.
i wish to start over somewhere new. somewhere with different people, different atmosphere, different understanding and amount of wisdom and knowledge in people because, this is ridiculous.
how can you be so immature as to only social climb alone?
dismiss other people's emotions, dismiss other people in general, push them out of the way, chew them and spit them out if needed... for what? oh yeah, to get to your desired place on the social ladder.
hm... why do you do this? what do you gain? temporary well being. the feeling of being wanted, needed, the feeling of belonging. where will this bring you in a couple.. lets say a few years time? nowhere. because there is not a single ounce of intelligence in your pshycologically malnourished brain, there is not an ounce of empathy, talent, or general decency. yet you think you are above everybody else? how can this be so?
i just don't understand. i could, possibly, definately, continue this ramble into every spec of a detail that roots into my head because there is plenty of content there. i don't have the time or energy however.
and, another thing. i'm wasting far too much energy on this. it's getting to me. it's drilling in and i can't seem to stop it whatever i do... it's always there. there will always be someone shouting at the top of their lungs because they wish people to turn around and watch. there will always be someone who will have shit splurging at the corners of their mouth because they will wish people to listen. there will always be someone who will note, comment, and judge someone because they wish people to fear.
yes my friends, welcome to my highschool.
i'm not sure how to take things anymore at all... maybe i am blowing this out of proportion? but as a whole, people have transformed a large amount. no, i do not wish to be a part of your crap. but, on the other hand fuck off so i can just continue with who i wish to be. i don't feel comfortable stepping out of my shell because of all of this shit.
for some highschool is their kingdom. for others it's a living brothel hell...
i wish to start over somewhere new. somewhere with different people, different atmosphere, different understanding and amount of wisdom and knowledge in people because, this is ridiculous.
how can you be so immature as to only social climb alone?
dismiss other people's emotions, dismiss other people in general, push them out of the way, chew them and spit them out if needed... for what? oh yeah, to get to your desired place on the social ladder.
hm... why do you do this? what do you gain? temporary well being. the feeling of being wanted, needed, the feeling of belonging. where will this bring you in a couple.. lets say a few years time? nowhere. because there is not a single ounce of intelligence in your pshycologically malnourished brain, there is not an ounce of empathy, talent, or general decency. yet you think you are above everybody else? how can this be so?
i just don't understand. i could, possibly, definately, continue this ramble into every spec of a detail that roots into my head because there is plenty of content there. i don't have the time or energy however.
and, another thing. i'm wasting far too much energy on this. it's getting to me. it's drilling in and i can't seem to stop it whatever i do... it's always there. there will always be someone shouting at the top of their lungs because they wish people to turn around and watch. there will always be someone who will have shit splurging at the corners of their mouth because they will wish people to listen. there will always be someone who will note, comment, and judge someone because they wish people to fear.
yes my friends, welcome to my highschool.
i'm not sure how to take things anymore at all... maybe i am blowing this out of proportion? but as a whole, people have transformed a large amount. no, i do not wish to be a part of your crap. but, on the other hand fuck off so i can just continue with who i wish to be. i don't feel comfortable stepping out of my shell because of all of this shit.
for some highschool is their kingdom. for others it's a living brothel hell...