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hello long lost journal which i never write in.
on an update from the previous post which informed you of my twisted guy relationship situationn....
that's all smoothed over now. well, i wouldn't say they're ideal but my desires are now clear to me. i did have to hurt a lot of people along the way eugh i'm such a twat. but sometimes you have to be selfish and do what's best for you right? i'm well chuffed with my current position though ahhh things may actually work out. he's so decent it's unbelievable i just hope i don't fuck anything up...
moving on from that, i haven't been feeling myself at all lately. i'm loosing myself, too. i'm not entirely sure what the root of this is, but it's normally to do with spending far too much time with a certain set of people and exams. well, mostly exams. i'm the biggest stresspot ever since i'm both incredibly ambitious and lazy at the same time sooo... hard to slap bang them together and make jam yanooo. well good grades basically.
i know who i want to be. and i also know where i currently am. there is such a massive gap between these two, that i sometimes doubt whether i should continue like this or make a move on it? bluegh i dont even know what im chatting ahaha need a holiday like NOW pls paris i'm thinkinggg. ciggaretes french music and love mmhhhhh come to me
on a side note my real life has transfferred to a tumblr and ebay cyber life ahaha, i'm over spending without being able to control it aaaah, who's complaining thouu raite? just my bank account then
in short, currently, i just want to start over somewhere else.
on an update from the previous post which informed you of my twisted guy relationship situationn....
that's all smoothed over now. well, i wouldn't say they're ideal but my desires are now clear to me. i did have to hurt a lot of people along the way eugh i'm such a twat. but sometimes you have to be selfish and do what's best for you right? i'm well chuffed with my current position though ahhh things may actually work out. he's so decent it's unbelievable i just hope i don't fuck anything up...
moving on from that, i haven't been feeling myself at all lately. i'm loosing myself, too. i'm not entirely sure what the root of this is, but it's normally to do with spending far too much time with a certain set of people and exams. well, mostly exams. i'm the biggest stresspot ever since i'm both incredibly ambitious and lazy at the same time sooo... hard to slap bang them together and make jam yanooo. well good grades basically.
i know who i want to be. and i also know where i currently am. there is such a massive gap between these two, that i sometimes doubt whether i should continue like this or make a move on it? bluegh i dont even know what im chatting ahaha need a holiday like NOW pls paris i'm thinkinggg. ciggaretes french music and love mmhhhhh come to me
on a side note my real life has transfferred to a tumblr and ebay cyber life ahaha, i'm over spending without being able to control it aaaah, who's complaining thouu raite? just my bank account then
in short, currently, i just want to start over somewhere else.