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I kind of have a thing for positive/faith in humanity type stories. I love reading them. I usually go off and do some things for other people after I have watched them, and while I usually do small things, like give up my seat on the bus or hold doors open for people, I have in recent months been buying meals for homeless people or coffee for someone if they look like they are having issues paying for it. The last one happened a couple of days ago. I barely thought about it, but in return the cashier gave me my coffee for free, and I just paid the buck each for the two donuts I had with it. I told the man only known to me as Simba that when he got to Portland for work (whether or not that is a thing that actually ended up happening I still kind of wonder about now and then), for him to pay it forward. I don't know why I am putting this here. I like doing nice things. I hate that Shiney had turned being sweet almost into a bad thing. Isn't the golden rule in kindergarden to treat people like you want to be treated? And didn't someone say (I want to say Maya Angelou, but I don't know for certain) to be the change you want to be in the world? Well, I want to be sweet. And I don't want being sweet to be a flaw of mine. Like last week or the week before, an anonymous person was messaging V for Valentine's day, and that person came to me asking if I was cool with it (I was, because knowing what little I know about what V's been through in past relationship, she needs and deserves the positive attention she gets, even if she won't admit to it). The Anon then called me V's partner and said that I was super sweet, and V agreed with her. The word sweet again. It made me cringe. And I was called sweet again today. It is like the main thing people seem to call me these days. But maybe I AM sweet, and it isn't supposed to be a bad thing. So I want to be nice. And I want people to be nice to me. I don't want to make my life harder than it already is by antagonizing people, and having them antagonizing me. So what if I am super sweet. Hella super sweet. That's me, I guess. But seriously, be fucking nice, god damn it.