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The diversity retreat was really good. It was intense but it was good. It is amazing how well you know who you are when you are put in a large group of people who are different from you. I was on the LGBTQ panel, and that was scary because I can only speak for myself and there were a lot of aspects and issues that we hadn't the time to go into. Still, there were some good questions there. there were some kids there and it was fun to play with them. One of them, Joe, would run at me and I would wrestle a little with him. It was pretty fun. I am moving again. I know I am the problem. It also adds that in the last two or three letters I have written, I have said something along the lines of 'You know how I worry' or 'but you know that I am a worry wart so...'. I went to the counseling center to see what might be wrong or if me being a worry wart means something deeper. I have some information on self sabotage as well because there was some mention on that due to something that was said as well as something I remember writing to my pen pal I now am in possession of two brochures about anxiety and depression. I used to take Celexa for depression about 7 years ago, so that is in my past a little bit. Maybe it might be a matter of doing that again. Maybe I need to be a little more educated about what I am taking and what else I can do to help myself not worry so much or blame everything on other things and people and take responsibility for why I say I want to do things but never do them. But this is a start.
Erin