What a nightmare...

[magickalmom]

So my sleep has been less that stellar in the last few days because school is coming into finals (next week) and the bringing one quarter to close and preparing for the next will only be one week. Yeah for me. *insert sarcasm here* Anyways, I have been using the fitbit thingy and it tells me that I was in bed 11 hours but only slept 9 1/2 hrs... still 9+ hours is more than I typically get. So while my body is thanking me but my mind is still reeling from the drama that unfolded in the later hours of my sleep cycle.

In a nutshell...

• The Army never reinstates TA and rebelprivateer is unable to finish his 4 yr degree so he can apply to UW Master's level PA program (2 yrs)
• The Army won't let him stay on AD past next year without PCSing somewhere else, and without us because of my job, Dragonzzilla's need for stability, and the house (that we're only 1+ yrs into)
• J chooses to retire and applies for UW's Bachelor's PA program (in Tacoma - 4 yrs long) but does not get in the first try and can't find work as a paramedic and it kills his spirit and he flounders.
• Meanwhile, our health insurance on the retiree's plan SUCKS and they stop covering DJ and all of his health and support services stop.
• D ends up not succeeding at the college he chooses, he can't keep a job, and he flounders.... which crushes me and his dad
• BKF114 isn't able to find work, his folks get really sick, and he leaves and moves back home to WV take care of them full time because his siblings in WV won't.
• We lose the house, move into a small apartment, swimming in the debt we acquired while J was on active duty, and I am supporting the family on my sad income as an OTA (compared to the joint income we hope to have if all plans go well)

The upside is that I graduate school and find a job... but I hate it because I had to take the first job offered because of all of the above stuff... and the shitty part is I was dumb and took a job with a contract (to help pay off my school debt) and when my dream job comes along I can't take it b/c I am locked into my contract with said shitty job).

I hate my brain sometimes! *trying to shake off the all too real fears*