Feeling Lonely and a Survey
For the last six months hubby and I have grown even closer than we ever were before, now he is on a trip and I feel so abandoned. I have not felt this way since his first 1 year tour in Korea over 10 years ago! Who knew that after a decade you could fall in love with someone all over again? I feel like such a sappy child missing him like I do. It is almost to the point of crying, which scares me incredibly, because I AM AN EMOTIONAL EATER! I admit it, I always have been... I eat when I can't deal with my emotions. I am trying so desperately to be good and not eat anything more for the night but the urges are so great... they come when I am not thinking about it... I will mindlessly get food into my mouth and once I start chewing, I realize what I am doing and I spit it out. I know this might be gross for some of you, but food has always been my greatest love and my worse demon!
I know I have to learn how to deal with this in a constructive way... I was using exercise as my outlet but I quickly became obsessive about exercising and I had to slow down. My trainer forced me to (I admit it, I was getting a bit nuts with all of the exercise!) so I have taken a break although I am finally going back to it slowly... I have gone to TKD, I have been doing manual labor around the house, etc... I had planned on going back to the gym this week but I have been staying up sooo late waiting to talk to Jim and hear his voice, that I am sleeping away my time when DJ is in school. And since I don't have a sitter, nor the money to pay for one, I have to find some other outlet. Something I can do when I have DJ and Jim is out of town. UGH! So right now I am drinking crystal light to fend off the urges to eat and I am journaling this in hopes that I can figure this crap out at some point, and I am going back to housework. Have you ever noticed how torn up a house can get when you start doing insane stuff like deep cleaning?! OYE, what a mess!
Leave one memory of you and me together.
It doesn't matter if I know you a little or a lot, anything you remember!
Next, post this in your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you.