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I. Am. So. Tired.
I'm tired of parents being idiots, I'm tired of having my actions misunderstood. I'm tired of no communication. I'm tired of not feeling like I can communicate. I'm tired of assumptions. I'm tired of ignorance. I'm tired ot people not being willing to learn. I'm tired of feeling like I can't do anything to help. I'm just plain tired. Of everything.
I miss my freshman year. So fucking much. Yeah, it was hard, but at least things made sense. Kyle and Stub were my best friends. Now, Kyle and I still aren't talking much and I'm lucky if I see Stub once a week. Then, Stacey and Stub were together, and they were perfect. They would end up together. Now... We all know the situation. Then, our group of friends would never leave each other. Now, there is no group.
I don't know. Life is just too much. There's drama at school, there's drama at church, there's drama with almost every fucking group of friends I have. There's more drama than I've ever been in.
It all became too much last night. I completely broke down. When I woke up this morning, I broke down again. Luckily mom let me stay home.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I so badly want to go live in a forest with one or two certain people and live there forever. Forget all this fucking bullshit. Forget this drama. Start a new life where things make sense. Where people communicate and don't assume stupid things. Where we love.
I'm so done.
I'm tired of parents being idiots, I'm tired of having my actions misunderstood. I'm tired of no communication. I'm tired of not feeling like I can communicate. I'm tired of assumptions. I'm tired of ignorance. I'm tired ot people not being willing to learn. I'm tired of feeling like I can't do anything to help. I'm just plain tired. Of everything.
I miss my freshman year. So fucking much. Yeah, it was hard, but at least things made sense. Kyle and Stub were my best friends. Now, Kyle and I still aren't talking much and I'm lucky if I see Stub once a week. Then, Stacey and Stub were together, and they were perfect. They would end up together. Now... We all know the situation. Then, our group of friends would never leave each other. Now, there is no group.
I don't know. Life is just too much. There's drama at school, there's drama at church, there's drama with almost every fucking group of friends I have. There's more drama than I've ever been in.
It all became too much last night. I completely broke down. When I woke up this morning, I broke down again. Luckily mom let me stay home.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I so badly want to go live in a forest with one or two certain people and live there forever. Forget all this fucking bullshit. Forget this drama. Start a new life where things make sense. Where people communicate and don't assume stupid things. Where we love.
I'm so done.