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Maybe its because I'm counting. Maybe its because I am so meticulously keeping track of each day that passes....one more horizontal line across an empty date box... If you called me impatient I would agree with you. I hate waiting. I hate things that I cannot control...like time. June 2nd makes 100, and June 1st makes 99!
I can honestly say though as time passes I am finding who I am. I'm not lost in passing fads and contemporary "it" magazines. I like sushi, and I like spending lots of money on expensive bags. I read the "Seed"-- an off beat science magazine. I've found a new love and passion for science, the science of the human body, the science of celestial bodies. I love star gazing and I love human blood. I love working in the lab doing tediously redundant work. I love what I'm learning about drugs, mechanisms of action, drug interaction. I love what I know but most importantly I love what I dont know because I can learn it! I love CSI even though I know its fake. It gives me a goal and it gives me a purpose.
I feel so different, I feel developed :) And even though I am running the risk of sounding completely retarded, its ok. I'm happy about that, because it's my identity. I guess no one knew the identity crisis I've been dealing with since high school and it feels so nice to wonder about myself...the one thing I should feel definite about. It was a long road finding myself, and slowly but surely I see where I'm going. I am young, and I am driven...a nice combination in my opinion.
I can honestly say though as time passes I am finding who I am. I'm not lost in passing fads and contemporary "it" magazines. I like sushi, and I like spending lots of money on expensive bags. I read the "Seed"-- an off beat science magazine. I've found a new love and passion for science, the science of the human body, the science of celestial bodies. I love star gazing and I love human blood. I love working in the lab doing tediously redundant work. I love what I'm learning about drugs, mechanisms of action, drug interaction. I love what I know but most importantly I love what I dont know because I can learn it! I love CSI even though I know its fake. It gives me a goal and it gives me a purpose.
I feel so different, I feel developed :) And even though I am running the risk of sounding completely retarded, its ok. I'm happy about that, because it's my identity. I guess no one knew the identity crisis I've been dealing with since high school and it feels so nice to wonder about myself...the one thing I should feel definite about. It was a long road finding myself, and slowly but surely I see where I'm going. I am young, and I am driven...a nice combination in my opinion.