Topic 2- Soundtrack
I used to love making mix tapes. I think it's so much fun to take these songs that seemingly don't make sense but all fit perfectly when you take a step back.
Blackbird, The Beatles.
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see.
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
My mom was a huge Beatles fan and she'd sing this song to me sometimes. It always made me feel like I could come out of anything, no matter how bad the circumstances were.
Walk the Walk, Poe
Mother spent ten years sitting by a window
Scared if she spoke she would die of a heart attack
She listened as her dreams silently screamed
They drowned like little dolphins caught in a fishnet
More mom-centric lyrics. I always liked this song, but the lyrics resonate with me so much now that I'm older and I know how much my dad manipulated her. I also think back about when I decided to come to Sunnydale for school. My dad was so mad, but I couldn't stay in my tiny hometown and waste away.
Mother, Mother, Tracy Bonham
When you sent me off to see the world,
were you scared that I might get hurt?
Would I try a little tobacco?
Would I keep on hiking up my skirt?
I'm hungry
I'm dirty
I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine
This song summed up the first couple of semesters at school for me. I had never been in a town as big as Sunnydale (and people said it was tiny!) and it was so intimidating. It felt like I was having to convince myself to stay more often than not, and the only thing that kept me here was my mom. She knew it would change my life.
Sing Along, Blue Man Group with Dave Matthews Band
If I tell you I'm strong,
will you play along,
Or would you see I'm as insecure as everybody else?
I never felt like I fit in at school. Even the Wicca group on campus felt off until Willow joined. I didn't feel like I could tell anyone that I was gay and those girls seemed more interested in baking cookies than doing spells. Don't get me wrong, I love myself a mocha chocolate chip right out of the oven as much as the next girl, but that wasn't what I was there for.
Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, Sting
Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on
Cliche, yes, but such an innocent song for the start to our relationship.
Under Your Spell, Me? And Willow? And Sweet the Demon?
I’m under your spell
How else could it be
Anyone would notice me?
It's magic, I can tell
How you set me free
Brought me out so easily
You can't have a soundtrack of your life without including the song you sang while under the thrall of a demon from another dimension, can you? I feel so young when I hear this song. We had no idea what was around the corner.
Across the Universe, The Beatles
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
When Willow and I started working with magicks together, everything was perfect. It felt like we were tapping in to everything that was good and pure about the world, and just touching her during a spell connected us on such a deep level.
Simple Kind of Life, No Doubt
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife
I obviously didn't want a man, but I did want to be a wife. As much as I like helping people, sometimes I wished Willow and I could just sit at home and be an old married couple. I actually enjoyed the times in our relationship when I was bored.
A Day in the Life, The Beatles
He blew his mind out in a car
He didn’t notice that the lights had changed
A crowd of people stood and stared
Being as gone as I was after Glory was totally indescribable, but I think the instrumental part sums it up so well. It's totally cacophonous for a bit and then just stops. Sometimes I understood what was going on, but for the most part I was just... there. Unfortunately, I remember all of it.
Not an Addict, K's Choice
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I still don't know if Willow understands how bad it was for me, but when she was caught up with Rack she had total tunnel vision. I'd never been around someone with an addiction, so I had no idea how to deal with her. Ultimately, I needed to do what was best for me, even if it meant hurting her.
Evaporated, Ben Folds Five
here I stand:
sad and free
I can't cry
and I can't see
what I've done
no, God,
what have I done?
and I poured my heart out
and I poured my heart out
it evaporated...
see?
Living without her was the hardest thing I've ever done. We're going cliche again, but we were so close that I literally felt like a part of myself was missing I wasn't around her.
Evermore, Neil Diamond
If you think of me in a year or two
Find that photograph showing me with you
What you see is what should be
Evermore
...
There's one thing unsaid
Thought you'd want to know
Love you still....guess I will
Evermore
I think this song sums up everything for the two of us. I'll always have a place in my heart for her, but I have to choose myself for now. I can't say for sure that we wouldn't fall into old habits again.
So! There it is. As you can see, my music library runs from pop to dorky, but I love each song. Now I just wish I still had a netgirl to help me download the ones I don't have... except that one with me and Willow. I don't think demons from the underworld have audio equipment.
Blackbird, The Beatles.
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see.
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free.
My mom was a huge Beatles fan and she'd sing this song to me sometimes. It always made me feel like I could come out of anything, no matter how bad the circumstances were.
Walk the Walk, Poe
Mother spent ten years sitting by a window
Scared if she spoke she would die of a heart attack
She listened as her dreams silently screamed
They drowned like little dolphins caught in a fishnet
More mom-centric lyrics. I always liked this song, but the lyrics resonate with me so much now that I'm older and I know how much my dad manipulated her. I also think back about when I decided to come to Sunnydale for school. My dad was so mad, but I couldn't stay in my tiny hometown and waste away.
Mother, Mother, Tracy Bonham
When you sent me off to see the world,
were you scared that I might get hurt?
Would I try a little tobacco?
Would I keep on hiking up my skirt?
I'm hungry
I'm dirty
I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine
This song summed up the first couple of semesters at school for me. I had never been in a town as big as Sunnydale (and people said it was tiny!) and it was so intimidating. It felt like I was having to convince myself to stay more often than not, and the only thing that kept me here was my mom. She knew it would change my life.
Sing Along, Blue Man Group with Dave Matthews Band
If I tell you I'm strong,
will you play along,
Or would you see I'm as insecure as everybody else?
I never felt like I fit in at school. Even the Wicca group on campus felt off until Willow joined. I didn't feel like I could tell anyone that I was gay and those girls seemed more interested in baking cookies than doing spells. Don't get me wrong, I love myself a mocha chocolate chip right out of the oven as much as the next girl, but that wasn't what I was there for.
Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, Sting
Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on
Cliche, yes, but such an innocent song for the start to our relationship.
Under Your Spell, Me? And Willow? And Sweet the Demon?
I’m under your spell
How else could it be
Anyone would notice me?
It's magic, I can tell
How you set me free
Brought me out so easily
You can't have a soundtrack of your life without including the song you sang while under the thrall of a demon from another dimension, can you? I feel so young when I hear this song. We had no idea what was around the corner.
Across the Universe, The Beatles
Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
When Willow and I started working with magicks together, everything was perfect. It felt like we were tapping in to everything that was good and pure about the world, and just touching her during a spell connected us on such a deep level.
Simple Kind of Life, No Doubt
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife
I obviously didn't want a man, but I did want to be a wife. As much as I like helping people, sometimes I wished Willow and I could just sit at home and be an old married couple. I actually enjoyed the times in our relationship when I was bored.
A Day in the Life, The Beatles
He blew his mind out in a car
He didn’t notice that the lights had changed
A crowd of people stood and stared
Being as gone as I was after Glory was totally indescribable, but I think the instrumental part sums it up so well. It's totally cacophonous for a bit and then just stops. Sometimes I understood what was going on, but for the most part I was just... there. Unfortunately, I remember all of it.
Not an Addict, K's Choice
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I still don't know if Willow understands how bad it was for me, but when she was caught up with Rack she had total tunnel vision. I'd never been around someone with an addiction, so I had no idea how to deal with her. Ultimately, I needed to do what was best for me, even if it meant hurting her.
Evaporated, Ben Folds Five
here I stand:
sad and free
I can't cry
and I can't see
what I've done
no, God,
what have I done?
and I poured my heart out
and I poured my heart out
it evaporated...
see?
Living without her was the hardest thing I've ever done. We're going cliche again, but we were so close that I literally felt like a part of myself was missing I wasn't around her.
Evermore, Neil Diamond
If you think of me in a year or two
Find that photograph showing me with you
What you see is what should be
Evermore
...
There's one thing unsaid
Thought you'd want to know
Love you still....guess I will
Evermore
I think this song sums up everything for the two of us. I'll always have a place in my heart for her, but I have to choose myself for now. I can't say for sure that we wouldn't fall into old habits again.
So! There it is. As you can see, my music library runs from pop to dorky, but I love each song. Now I just wish I still had a netgirl to help me download the ones I don't have... except that one with me and Willow. I don't think demons from the underworld have audio equipment.