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i wanted to tell you i burned my fingers again.
it doesnt really make sense because it's just because of the microwave but i didn't even heat the food that long.
it's been a week since i saw you
what a great last time
we've always been good at that
but we didnt' make up
i couldn't let us
it made me feel like we worked
that last weekend made me feel like that too
but i realised it was because we were giving each other space
giving each other what we needed
but maybe you were doing a lot of it
but i was giving things too
because we were working together
getting things we both needed
and it didn't feel hard
but it was a lie
if you asked me now i would say yes
if you called me and asked me i would get back together
but it can't be me
But who is taking care of you?
Are you eating?
Is someone reminding you to eat? To sleep? To shop? Who are you talking to? How are your plants?
i've been wearing dresses thinking aobut how much you'd like me in them
thinking about that time in the living room the first time i wore my blue dress
is it weird that i sucked on your tongue
i always thought you would think it was weird
but i kinda liked it
is it weird that i didn't always close my eyes when we made out
maybe it's weird
were we better as friends?
i loved being your fried
but i always wanted more
and you were so available to me
and i was so comfortable making myself available to you
you told me to write something happy
oh you're so beautiful.
but i'm not happy
i miss you
i stopped groaning which is nice
i love you