perhaps I should back up a bit for any potential readers...
I apologize in advance if any of these ramblings are boring, overdramatic, crazy, whiny, cowardly, far too frequent or many in number, etc. This journaling is primarily for myself. But it would be nice if my efforts in working through this in a semi-public journal might offer someone else whatever it is they're looking for, be it amusement, bemusement, or knowledge that they aren't the only ones trying to keep themselves together.
The single most important fact a reader would need to know is that being unemployed and spending large quantities of time alone is an exceedingly frightening combination for me. Every weekday I have all nine hours Brett is at work to confront my deepest insecurities with nobody but myself and what I tritely refer to as my "demons". (But thank God Brett and I aren't both unemployed!!) I've done this before, for most of 2008, and it was not fun. I'm hoping that this time will be different. Learning from the mistakes I made last time and using the confidence I gained through my last job are the ways I might be able to make this a more positive experience.
Time will tell.
The single most important fact a reader would need to know is that being unemployed and spending large quantities of time alone is an exceedingly frightening combination for me. Every weekday I have all nine hours Brett is at work to confront my deepest insecurities with nobody but myself and what I tritely refer to as my "demons". (But thank God Brett and I aren't both unemployed!!) I've done this before, for most of 2008, and it was not fun. I'm hoping that this time will be different. Learning from the mistakes I made last time and using the confidence I gained through my last job are the ways I might be able to make this a more positive experience.
Time will tell.