The Concept of 'Becoming Awesome'
I am so much happier now that I am doing stuff again!
The One Billion Rising Event is actually coming together really well so far! Can I say that I'm becoming a really awesome organizer! Or that I've become a really awesome organizer and believe it?!
I say this because yesterday I met with some musicians who really wanted to get me in their band because they thought I'd add diversity simply because "I'm a girl". I over looked that, because I really just want to make some fucking music! I was like whatever dude, whatever will get you to hear me out. I was really nervous, I'm always nervous when I play in front of new people. I played some of the new material I've written which is very progressive. They were more old school Thrash so it was a very interesting mix. We are going to try and get something going next week for sure with more focus and direction. The guys were so confident. Why can't I be that confident?
Later, I hung out with my friend Cesar who I've jammed with a few times, and legit we mesh really really well musically but our schedules are ALWAYS opposite (he works when I don't). Anyway, while we were hanging out he said "I've been drawing a lot and my drawing skills have become bad ass!" I was like shocked when he said it, I don't think I've ever thought of any skill or talent I have in that way. I'm always like "I'm alright" always self deprecating. My friend Ryane says if we keep saying negative things about ourselves others will remember it and believe it. I've got to start talking about myself more positively.
I am a good musician.
I am good at guitar.
I do create good music.
I do have a good voice.
I am a bad ass organizer.
I am a pretty great person.
Why shouldn't I believe such great things about myself? If anyone is going to believe them it's got to start with me right?
The One Billion Rising Event will be Amazing!
Things will work out with me and these other musicians.
I can do anything I set my mind to!
GO!
The One Billion Rising Event is actually coming together really well so far! Can I say that I'm becoming a really awesome organizer! Or that I've become a really awesome organizer and believe it?!
I say this because yesterday I met with some musicians who really wanted to get me in their band because they thought I'd add diversity simply because "I'm a girl". I over looked that, because I really just want to make some fucking music! I was like whatever dude, whatever will get you to hear me out. I was really nervous, I'm always nervous when I play in front of new people. I played some of the new material I've written which is very progressive. They were more old school Thrash so it was a very interesting mix. We are going to try and get something going next week for sure with more focus and direction. The guys were so confident. Why can't I be that confident?
Later, I hung out with my friend Cesar who I've jammed with a few times, and legit we mesh really really well musically but our schedules are ALWAYS opposite (he works when I don't). Anyway, while we were hanging out he said "I've been drawing a lot and my drawing skills have become bad ass!" I was like shocked when he said it, I don't think I've ever thought of any skill or talent I have in that way. I'm always like "I'm alright" always self deprecating. My friend Ryane says if we keep saying negative things about ourselves others will remember it and believe it. I've got to start talking about myself more positively.
I am a good musician.
I am good at guitar.
I do create good music.
I do have a good voice.
I am a bad ass organizer.
I am a pretty great person.
Why shouldn't I believe such great things about myself? If anyone is going to believe them it's got to start with me right?
The One Billion Rising Event will be Amazing!
Things will work out with me and these other musicians.
I can do anything I set my mind to!
GO!