"Jingle bells...jingle bells..."
i couldnt sleep b/c im too damn stressed out and frustrated. jasper and i are over...for the 3rd time. i dont feel like getting into the whole story but hes a fucking dick and he fucking hurt me really bad. today i went over to claytons and hung out w/ him and juston and evans and ian and zach and some other ppl. i talked to justen evans and he said he never dumped me...his brother was the one who called me and said all that. i dunno if i believe him but its pretty clear were done w/ now. jasper was there tonight. that put me in just a peachy mood. i talked to him and told him that basically i dont want to lose him as a friend but im done w/ letting him hurt me and im not putting up w/ his shit.
I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF PPL HURTING ME. and im done w/ it. all of my friends always say im so nice and shit, and i think im nice to just about everyone besides a select few who i cant stand. but fuck it, im done letting ppl walk all over me. im not putting up w/ ppl's shit anymore. i dont fucking deserve to constantly be in pain. and im fucking done w/ the words I LOVE YOU. nobody fucking means it. love means unconditionally caring about someone. and everyone who has ever said they loved me have hurt me really fucking bad and proved to me that they really dont care at all. but i can say right now, and mean it, that everyone i have ever said that i loved, i really did. because even though i dont feel that love for them anymore, i still care about them. and to me that shows that when i told them that i loved them, it was real. even those ppl that fucking hate me now, i ment what i said. and even though i act like i dont care that they dont give a shit about me, it does hurt a little becuase i will always care. becasue im too fucking nice. but ya know what ppl? im not going to let ppl fucking hurt me anymore. ya'll hear that? IM FUCKING DONE W/ IT.
MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS
I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF PPL HURTING ME. and im done w/ it. all of my friends always say im so nice and shit, and i think im nice to just about everyone besides a select few who i cant stand. but fuck it, im done letting ppl walk all over me. im not putting up w/ ppl's shit anymore. i dont fucking deserve to constantly be in pain. and im fucking done w/ the words I LOVE YOU. nobody fucking means it. love means unconditionally caring about someone. and everyone who has ever said they loved me have hurt me really fucking bad and proved to me that they really dont care at all. but i can say right now, and mean it, that everyone i have ever said that i loved, i really did. because even though i dont feel that love for them anymore, i still care about them. and to me that shows that when i told them that i loved them, it was real. even those ppl that fucking hate me now, i ment what i said. and even though i act like i dont care that they dont give a shit about me, it does hurt a little becuase i will always care. becasue im too fucking nice. but ya know what ppl? im not going to let ppl fucking hurt me anymore. ya'll hear that? IM FUCKING DONE W/ IT.
MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS