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I am in a bout of depression again. Have been improving from a few days ago where it's been very consuming, but still not doing well.
I miss getting phone calls.
Almost dating a boy is infinitely more frustrating than not dating at all. Makes me sing a string along song.
I've been fending off the loneliness, but it's getting a lot worse. Seeing people who don't deserve love that they have is upsetting to say the least.
I wonder if I'm missed. Not in any depressing I wish I was dead kinda way. just wanna hear one of the many I don't see anymore say "I miss you."
Every few days, I find myself laying in my chair, staring into space, and I cry, and feel intense sadness and emptiness for about 5 minutes, and then it mostly goes away, just leaving me generally melancholy. I have no idea what that's about.
A hug would be nice, too.
I'm sorry for the whining, I just need it.