The Pill
I figured it was time for an update. I haven't been writing much lately, in here nor my journal, which is uncharacteristic of me because I generally write in my journal (the real one) everyday and am able to fill up at least 5 pages with my thoughts. Lately, my mind has been dominated by thoughts on people's behavior. I believe it's because of the books I've been reading, all the characters seem to be so intensely interested on what is on other people's minds, they have little time for their own. When I was at Borders the other day, I spent two hours sitting in Seattle's Best Coffee, writing about the people who came in. I did this all based on what I heard at first, and then I looked up to see if my presumptions were right. I have to say, I'm pretty good at guessing people's most shallow (physical) traits. It was interesting and led to a 17 page entry. Needless to say, my hand was in major cramp position afterwards and the outside of it all silver from dragging across the page. One of the many punishments for being a left-handed person.
Anyways, I am on birth control now. Yesterday I went to the doctors and got a pap smear. Good lord, was that awkward. It didn't hurt or anything but afterwards I felt violated. Sure, I can have sex but as soon as a professional is down there I get uncomfortable. I don't get it? Oh well, something to do some soul-searching about, right?
I have added yet another thing to my celibacy vow, no meat. Why did I add it? I've been thinking about things lately and it seems so much healthier to become a vegetarian. Chickens, cows, pork and other various meat are pumped up with all these steroids that can't be healthy going into your body. Also, in talking to people, I have found that when they became vegetarian, they noticed their skin cleared up, they lost weight, their energy increased, and their muscles became more toned. I have been feeling very crummy lately and I believe that it is poor diet induced. My energy level is at an all-time low and I get depressed more than I used to. I figure, why not take everything from my life that could be affecting it negatively and just start from scratch. I guarantee you though, the first day of summer is going to be a beautiful carnivorous feast!
I am hoping that this vegetarian thing will grow on me. It's been easy so far, but I wonder how long I'll be able to hold out.