Life...why bother?

[maeveshne]

For those of you who may not know, Tony, my teen, was sent to a special school in Mass-hole-chusetts (sorry...just how I feel at the moment) on May 2nd, where he will be for the next 12-18 months.  Basically, he needs to learn the stuff that a good mom should have succeeded in teaching him.  Since he did not learn those lessons, I can only assume

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[maeveshne]

You know, I remember one other time I was this low. It was when my BF of 4 years up and left. Only then, I was able to see a counselor, a shrink, whatever. When that failed, I could go to NH and get the hell away from my life for a while, which helped ease the torment. Now...I have nothing. No recourse, at any rate. Sure, I have friends, some of whom are more dear to me than my blood kin. And all of whom are going through some private hell that I cannot help them with, any more than they can help me with. What a world we live in, huh? I have to figure out how to do this completely on my own, because I cannot expect anyone to be there for me. This way, if someone is, great; but if no one is, I will know I can do it on my own, no matter that I am at least as depressed as then, possibly even more. I mean, I came home tonight - no BF, he's at Arkham judging a Magic tournament like he is each Friday. It was all I could do to open the fridge to get some form of food...and then I was not hungry enough to bother eating, so I put it away.