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blogging is so much better to me than journaling, because I can actually get out what I'm thinking instead of losing half of it because I'm writing it out on paper.
I hate so much feeling like everything is up in the air. I've got to figure out what I want, what makes me happy, where I want to go. and I really need to stop looking so far into the future. it doesn't really matter what I'll be doing 5 years from now, it's going to be at least half of that before I need to find an internship, more before I start applying to grad schools. I don't really understand why it's always so hard for me to focus on what's going on today or even this year instead of years down the road.
I had about 3 more paragraphs written, and have realized that I think I blog less because it seems as though I'm always complaining. I know that's not true, but gray-area thinking is not one of my stronger suits. I'm such an emotionally focused person, and such a future-bound thinker. I want to have everything lined up and I want to at least have an idea of what's going to happen, but that's just not realistic. overall, I am happy with how things are right now. maybe I need to tie a ribbon around my wrist (eyes, brain) that says that.
curses. I'm at work, got interrupted, and I've lost my train of thought.
I hate so much feeling like everything is up in the air. I've got to figure out what I want, what makes me happy, where I want to go. and I really need to stop looking so far into the future. it doesn't really matter what I'll be doing 5 years from now, it's going to be at least half of that before I need to find an internship, more before I start applying to grad schools. I don't really understand why it's always so hard for me to focus on what's going on today or even this year instead of years down the road.
I had about 3 more paragraphs written, and have realized that I think I blog less because it seems as though I'm always complaining. I know that's not true, but gray-area thinking is not one of my stronger suits. I'm such an emotionally focused person, and such a future-bound thinker. I want to have everything lined up and I want to at least have an idea of what's going to happen, but that's just not realistic. overall, I am happy with how things are right now. maybe I need to tie a ribbon around my wrist (eyes, brain) that says that.
curses. I'm at work, got interrupted, and I've lost my train of thought.