Silence
Wow it's been forever since I did anything with this.
So much has changed, but I'm not going to go into it all right now.
Right now I'm just upset. I don't like being ignored, avoided, it upsets me possibly more then someone just talking or yelling at me.
I've been feeling extremely unappreciated, unattractive and unwanted. I try to do nice things and I fuck it up. I don't know what to do or how to act. I'm tired, and lonely. I crave affection...to be told I'm beautiful, for no other reason then to make me smile...
I want to cuddle and kiss, and fall asleep nuzzled beside her, but time after time I'm pushed away to the point that I'm loosing the will to try...
The indifference, the silent treatment, it's wearing me down.
I want to help...but there's nothing I can say, nothing I can do. And I fuck up everything I try.
I feel so useless...
I should've taken that call from work and gone in today. Least I'd be making some money, since I managed to fuck that up too.
So much has changed, but I'm not going to go into it all right now.
Right now I'm just upset. I don't like being ignored, avoided, it upsets me possibly more then someone just talking or yelling at me.
I've been feeling extremely unappreciated, unattractive and unwanted. I try to do nice things and I fuck it up. I don't know what to do or how to act. I'm tired, and lonely. I crave affection...to be told I'm beautiful, for no other reason then to make me smile...
I want to cuddle and kiss, and fall asleep nuzzled beside her, but time after time I'm pushed away to the point that I'm loosing the will to try...
The indifference, the silent treatment, it's wearing me down.
I want to help...but there's nothing I can say, nothing I can do. And I fuck up everything I try.
I feel so useless...
I should've taken that call from work and gone in today. Least I'd be making some money, since I managed to fuck that up too.