I'm Really Into Myself Right Now: Day 4
"Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now."
"Day Two: Nine things about yourself."
"Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart."
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
Well. This is a weighty topic, yes?
1) To start off with something lighthearted, food. I really like to eat. I really like food. I think about it a lot.
2) My baby cousin. I love this little boy so much. And today-- ugh. I can't-- Why do people feel the need to give me bad news when I get into the car. Give me some time to warm up to it. I-- I've gotten pretty much all bad news this way. It's getting to the point where I can barely get picked up by anyone, because I am so terrified that something bad is going to happen. It's-- I was feeling terrified all day. And ugh. And now I've been threatened to be sent somewhere to work stuff out and-- Ugh. *rant* *has issues*
But anyway, apparently my baby boy climbed up on the counter and walked across the hot stove. He has second and third degree burns on his feet. I can't even describe how upset I am. Actually, I'm pretty livid with his parents at this moment. It wasn't even that bad, I just don't want to think of him in pain and he is TINY and I just love him too much.
And it didn't help my anxiety issues, as I was sure something bad was going to happen, because nothing bad had happened in a while. And I was expecting the other shoe to drop, so to speak.
And my car issues.
All bad news comes from cars.
I have a problem with that.
3) How proud I am of my family and the business and how much I love my grandfather and respect him and how he is one of the best role models and relationships I've ever had.
4) I know it's cliched... but there is this person who I shall refer to as Leaf Eater. (It's really not a euphemism...) And this person is always. fucking. there.
But she's pretty damn spectacular.
Except I wish she'd leave me alone when she's not here.
And when I get her gone...
Nights like this happen.
And she's back.
5) General anxiety and a fear of ever letting anything get too good, because it is going to bottom out on me. Which. Happens. And anxiety as a rule. And my issues with my issues.
6) The future. Whether immediate or long term. It drives me insane. I am always planning for soon. I wish I could live in the moment more.
7) Fiction.
I think too much, I think...
"Day Two: Nine things about yourself."
"Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart."
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
Well. This is a weighty topic, yes?
1) To start off with something lighthearted, food. I really like to eat. I really like food. I think about it a lot.
2) My baby cousin. I love this little boy so much. And today-- ugh. I can't-- Why do people feel the need to give me bad news when I get into the car. Give me some time to warm up to it. I-- I've gotten pretty much all bad news this way. It's getting to the point where I can barely get picked up by anyone, because I am so terrified that something bad is going to happen. It's-- I was feeling terrified all day. And ugh. And now I've been threatened to be sent somewhere to work stuff out and-- Ugh. *rant* *has issues*
But anyway, apparently my baby boy climbed up on the counter and walked across the hot stove. He has second and third degree burns on his feet. I can't even describe how upset I am. Actually, I'm pretty livid with his parents at this moment. It wasn't even that bad, I just don't want to think of him in pain and he is TINY and I just love him too much.
And it didn't help my anxiety issues, as I was sure something bad was going to happen, because nothing bad had happened in a while. And I was expecting the other shoe to drop, so to speak.
And my car issues.
All bad news comes from cars.
I have a problem with that.
3) How proud I am of my family and the business and how much I love my grandfather and respect him and how he is one of the best role models and relationships I've ever had.
4) I know it's cliched... but there is this person who I shall refer to as Leaf Eater. (It's really not a euphemism...) And this person is always. fucking. there.
But she's pretty damn spectacular.
Except I wish she'd leave me alone when she's not here.
And when I get her gone...
Nights like this happen.
And she's back.
5) General anxiety and a fear of ever letting anything get too good, because it is going to bottom out on me. Which. Happens. And anxiety as a rule. And my issues with my issues.
6) The future. Whether immediate or long term. It drives me insane. I am always planning for soon. I wish I could live in the moment more.
7) Fiction.
I think too much, I think...