lights will guide you home
I don't know what's wrong.
I don't know what's wrong with you.
You won't tell me.
You won't let me help.
I don't know if I could help you anyway.
But you won't even let me try.
I am afraid.
I am afraid more than I have ever been.
You are so fragile.
You are so perfect.
I am so afraid.
I am so afraid of losing you.
I am so afraid that you will run away from me.
I am so afraid that you will look for an answer somewhere else.
I am so afraid that you'll try to fix everything that is wrong with your life.
I am so afraid that you think that I am one of those things.
Don't tell me you're sick.
You haven't had the stomach flu for a month.
You are not sick.
At least not that way.
I am worried.
You didn't show up one day.
I had to coax myself of an anxiety attack.
I kept feeling terror creep up on me.
You frighten me.
I can't handle losing you.
You are the greatest thing I've ever had in my life.
And I know that for certain.
I love you.
More than I've ever loved anything.
Give me a chance.
Tell me what is wrong.
I will listen.
I will sit with you forever.
If you wanted me to.
Stop lying to me.
Stop saying that you are okay.
Because we both know you are not.
Tell me.
I will try so hard to fix you.
But mostly.
I will love you.
Always.
No matter what.
♥