Thoughts of writing.
After some trying event, I have found that the tail-end of recovery - weeks later - involves a kind of insomnia. I may do to sleep, but wake up only half an hour later. So, I don't really have a full nights sleep, but several mini-sleeps in a cluster. They are all swimming around, looking for the right time and place to finally join together. So, my circadian rythm is really weak, like very thin, tender skin. After a very bad day, this insomnia is happening again tonight. I awke at about 2:am, with my freakish frontal migraine abnging away, and I could not sleep, so I switched on the TV. WHich is a nice thing to have for insomnia, except all the light.
Watched some of a great episode of House MD. I sure liked that show, and still do. Then, as now, my brain fights to catch up to figuring out what is going on. I often have trouble with incoming, (not so much outgoing), information. This, and worse symptoms, is why I can't stand to be around people. Not only do I have to figure out and care about their chatter, but most people have no clue about my illness, or even about real adversity in general. Here's that episode:
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x6s8t1e
snips--
snip - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SB9Z1cX1zDk
There continues to be stupid uncertainty here. My sister has yet to give me the keys, has my stuff locked in the garage, including the garbage bins, and this prevents me from putting out the garbage. I am going to take some kind of action about this. Still fighting the CFS. Anyway, even with the uncertainty of remaining here or not, I have been thinking about writing. On something serious. Easier than this, would be to get together several of my theme posts, edit, and put them out in book form, first part of a series. There are book publisher who accept such crap. I could also do YouTube videos - but no way would I attempt that here. Insufficient security and emotional investment here. It's pathetic that I am immediately pulled into the old family bullshit.
Well, if I do manage to start writing, fiction for instance, maybe you could let me know what YOU find interesting or enjoyable about my journal. Which subjects? Should I focus on humour? My psychological stuff? Science? I don't know. Maybe you can tell me what you think others might like??? Because the first stuff really needs to find an audience, and make money. And I need to focus on making money in other ways, since this move has been very expensive to me. One consideration is to sue a few people, lol.
Goodnight again, I hope.
Watched some of a great episode of House MD. I sure liked that show, and still do. Then, as now, my brain fights to catch up to figuring out what is going on. I often have trouble with incoming, (not so much outgoing), information. This, and worse symptoms, is why I can't stand to be around people. Not only do I have to figure out and care about their chatter, but most people have no clue about my illness, or even about real adversity in general. Here's that episode:
https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x6s8t1e
snips--
Click to viewsnip - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SB9Z1cX1zDk
There continues to be stupid uncertainty here. My sister has yet to give me the keys, has my stuff locked in the garage, including the garbage bins, and this prevents me from putting out the garbage. I am going to take some kind of action about this. Still fighting the CFS. Anyway, even with the uncertainty of remaining here or not, I have been thinking about writing. On something serious. Easier than this, would be to get together several of my theme posts, edit, and put them out in book form, first part of a series. There are book publisher who accept such crap. I could also do YouTube videos - but no way would I attempt that here. Insufficient security and emotional investment here. It's pathetic that I am immediately pulled into the old family bullshit.
Well, if I do manage to start writing, fiction for instance, maybe you could let me know what YOU find interesting or enjoyable about my journal. Which subjects? Should I focus on humour? My psychological stuff? Science? I don't know. Maybe you can tell me what you think others might like??? Because the first stuff really needs to find an audience, and make money. And I need to focus on making money in other ways, since this move has been very expensive to me. One consideration is to sue a few people, lol.
Goodnight again, I hope.