Mar 19, 2011 13:52
I didn't do it in purpose. I was scrolling down the list of people who have @'d me recently and you weren't on it. I didn't FORGET you on PURPOSE, I just kept scrolling down.
Christ, do you think anyone really NOTICES that I didn't put you on my list?! Do you really think people care that much?
I can't believe you're starting up something over nothing. You accuse me of doing that all the time and here you are making a big deal out of nothing. What about that STUPID comment you wrote on your facebook about how people can BUY your love with gifts? What, did you think I wouldn't see THAT? BUT I DIDN'T FUCKING SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I'M AT LEAST TRYING TO KEEP IT TOGETHER.
I'm not mad at you. At least I wasn't until NOW. I'm giving you your space because god forbid we have another fight. But you just had to be a jerk and send me that RUDE text message. You made me sound like a DOG.
You are by far the most INSENSITIVE person of all time. Do you seriously think my world revolves around you? Don't you ever wonder why I've clung so hard to you? Do you think it's your winning personality? I've DONE it because if I don't, I'd feel as though I'd slip away - EXACTLY like what's happening now because I've been TRYING to let go.
You were the only person who understood how I couldn't comprehend how people could just get up and walk away and ABANDON the people they supposedly care about. I have done everything possible to be as CLOSE to you as possible so you'd never doubt for a SECOND that I was going to leave you.
How can I talk to you when all you say to me is that you think my feelings for you are the centre of all our problems? Our PROBLEM is a lot more complicated than that. Maybe you should fucking take some responsibility for how messed up our supposed friendship is.
Do you think I like the way things are? Do you think I LIKE what's happened to us? You're so self absorbed that you're too busy LECTURING ME over NOTHING and then being a complete hypocrite and making me feel like shit WHEN YOU DO THE SAME THING.
YOU can get away with it, but not me? How exactly is that fair?
You want to talk to me about ridiculous? The fact that you'd assume I'd leave you out for any other reason then I just didn't. WHAT DO YOU CARE? You don't FF anyone so what does it MATTER.
I'm trying so hard to leave you alone. To give you back the life you had before I complicated it.
Why do you just have to keep on hurting me?