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Today already hasn't been the most terrific for me. I woke up at like 11:35 or something BJ was knocking at my window. Mancel needed his car keys and they were in the house of course all the doors were locked so they couldn't get in. Then i showered, which is the highlight of my day yet far. Then i thought about Charlie. Which is never a good thing. I honestly don't like him anymore honestly i've given up just in general. I don't like him anymore at all but i wondered if he ever thought about me. The way i think about him. Like when i hear someones going to spain i think of him wanting to go back to spain. i wonder if he ever does that with me. but i doubt it he is a guy. i wonder if hes ever just like marilyn mansons on madeline loves him. Maybe i'm the only one in the world who ever does this. Either way though i heard he got a hair cut i also heard it doesn't look very good and that its short. i loved his shaggy hair maybe its a good thing he cut it. its probably a lie though i'm sure he still looks perfect. either way i could care less, honestly this time it really doesn't even matter to me. i always say i hate him hes a bastard! this time thought i don't hate him i want him to be happy, but i just don't like him anymore. so i'm at peace right now. I don't need him i know that for a fact. They say everything happends for a reason maybe this happend to show me i can be strong enough to forget him and actually live. not just roll over and die. anyways enough about him. Today probably nothing will go on. except i'm going out tonight. and i promised clinton that if i got drunk i'd call. Even though hopefully i won't. Everyone in cambridge knows what happend last time i did that. I might call emily tonight and see what shes doing this weekend. It's overdue that i call her. okay well thats it