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updating to you live from my carly boos room up at cmu. we just got done watching reqiuem. i love it. everyone thought it was beyond fucked up. oh yes it is.
but oh so wonderful.
now im sitting here ready to write how i feel. listening to neon by john mayer in the dark. everyone out in the living room being loud - in here is just me, mr mayer, and my hoohaa sleeping on the top bunk.
nick just text messaged me, to throw you into that story, saying "you need to be here"
his marine ball was tonight and he wanted me to go.
but i couldnt because(list time)
1. too short notice
2. havent seen my carly boo in forever and promised i would come up here
3. my hair and makeup artist was unavailable.
he really really wanted me to go. but you cant give a girl 4 hours to get ready for a formal ball. no way no how. so i told him to skip the ball and come to cmu with me. but his friends were expecting him.
so we've just been texting back and forth all night. hes called me 4 times today.
ive called him twice.
i have no idea where any of this came from.
you would have to be me to know how weird it is. just because of how long we've been friends, and how i never ever felt like this about him before.
hmy reply to his message was "i wish i was"
then his reply to that was "then i have a place for you"
the most strange thing about this is that he is completly normal, and he is available. i always go for the guys that are taken or are just out of relationships and fucked up.
he is neither. and hes fun. we laugh about everything all the time.
and he does that thing where he tilts his head to the side when im saying something serious.
i dont know why that drives me crazy but it does.
here without you
im obsessed with that song
and guess who has the cd and played it for me last night?
yes. correct.
i love not feeling crazy. and getting everything back that i give.
and its someone who has cared about me since i was 8 years old. does it get any better than that?
and nice. so nice. fuck. i need to chill out.
im calm im cool.
he wants to see requiem. like asap.
i think he would agree to crossroads as long as it was with me. did that sound conceited?
sorry i just havent felt like this in 4 years. noone has been this nice to me...well ever... i dont think.
plus hes hot. how often does that happen.
how could i not have noticed this and have ignored him for so long like i did.
we use to joke senior year of high school that we would get married someday because we both wanted loft apartments in nyc.
haha my screen gets all wavy and weird right before text messages come in. thats cool.
requiem is so good. i just have to insert that here.
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
its 12:34 now and im not tired. i just keep staring at my phone and writing.
my nose is cold. and desi is cute when she sleeps.
we went to the casinos where i won $6.
yes thats right a whole $6. it was super fun.
then we went to applebees and had so much fun.
it was me, carly, desi, allison, tyler, chris, and brandon.
haha applebees has never been so much fun. i dont know why but it just was. ive missed my little carly boo.
i got here and her desktop picture was one of her and i - tiled. so there was like 10 of the same one.
cute.
we got some cute pics tonight too. we got like 2 in the casino then got told we couldnt have cameras in there.
blah.
i need to go to bed.
im so glad there was no drinking that took place tonight
im trying to decide weather or not to make this a friends only entry or not.
ill just make it public. who cares.
who cares if you all get a quick glimpse of me with my wall down.
it wont happen again so savor it while it lasts.
he just called and we talked for like half an hour.
all good good good and more good.
im going to bed happy.
you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake
goodnight.
but oh so wonderful.
now im sitting here ready to write how i feel. listening to neon by john mayer in the dark. everyone out in the living room being loud - in here is just me, mr mayer, and my hoohaa sleeping on the top bunk.
nick just text messaged me, to throw you into that story, saying "you need to be here"
his marine ball was tonight and he wanted me to go.
but i couldnt because(list time)
1. too short notice
2. havent seen my carly boo in forever and promised i would come up here
3. my hair and makeup artist was unavailable.
he really really wanted me to go. but you cant give a girl 4 hours to get ready for a formal ball. no way no how. so i told him to skip the ball and come to cmu with me. but his friends were expecting him.
so we've just been texting back and forth all night. hes called me 4 times today.
ive called him twice.
i have no idea where any of this came from.
you would have to be me to know how weird it is. just because of how long we've been friends, and how i never ever felt like this about him before.
hmy reply to his message was "i wish i was"
then his reply to that was "then i have a place for you"
the most strange thing about this is that he is completly normal, and he is available. i always go for the guys that are taken or are just out of relationships and fucked up.
he is neither. and hes fun. we laugh about everything all the time.
and he does that thing where he tilts his head to the side when im saying something serious.
i dont know why that drives me crazy but it does.
here without you
im obsessed with that song
and guess who has the cd and played it for me last night?
yes. correct.
i love not feeling crazy. and getting everything back that i give.
and its someone who has cared about me since i was 8 years old. does it get any better than that?
and nice. so nice. fuck. i need to chill out.
im calm im cool.
he wants to see requiem. like asap.
i think he would agree to crossroads as long as it was with me. did that sound conceited?
sorry i just havent felt like this in 4 years. noone has been this nice to me...well ever... i dont think.
plus hes hot. how often does that happen.
how could i not have noticed this and have ignored him for so long like i did.
we use to joke senior year of high school that we would get married someday because we both wanted loft apartments in nyc.
haha my screen gets all wavy and weird right before text messages come in. thats cool.
requiem is so good. i just have to insert that here.
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
its 12:34 now and im not tired. i just keep staring at my phone and writing.
my nose is cold. and desi is cute when she sleeps.
we went to the casinos where i won $6.
yes thats right a whole $6. it was super fun.
then we went to applebees and had so much fun.
it was me, carly, desi, allison, tyler, chris, and brandon.
haha applebees has never been so much fun. i dont know why but it just was. ive missed my little carly boo.
i got here and her desktop picture was one of her and i - tiled. so there was like 10 of the same one.
cute.
we got some cute pics tonight too. we got like 2 in the casino then got told we couldnt have cameras in there.
blah.
i need to go to bed.
im so glad there was no drinking that took place tonight
im trying to decide weather or not to make this a friends only entry or not.
ill just make it public. who cares.
who cares if you all get a quick glimpse of me with my wall down.
it wont happen again so savor it while it lasts.
he just called and we talked for like half an hour.
all good good good and more good.
im going to bed happy.
you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake
goodnight.