everything has gone wrong
everything is shit.
i'm being choked out. i'm being suffocated. i am about to be told that i can't be where i've been most happy anymore. i don't know what to do. i'm seriously losing it. everything is out of my control. i'm being told. i have no choice in anything anymore, and it's eating at me. it's absolutley drowning me.
i'm hoping for the best in a situation i have no control over, i'm hoping there's a way. if there is a way, i hope that god or whatever willing power there is to help me out will do just that, because i can't go back to how it was. 19 is and was supposed to continue to be the best year of my life and in less that 2 days it has turned into the worst. i need to keep going. i've grown so much and i feel that, truly... without lying to myself i feel like i've grown so much as a person and now i'm just back to the same old sour situation.
i really need this. i need my 3rd chance. i don't know what i'm going to do, i really don't. i'm really suffocating.
i feel like the only way i will be able to breathe easy is for this to work out for me. there's really no other option as far as this and as far as i am concerned. i really need this to be one of three things; a warning, a joke, or a nightmare. and i'm hoping it's the first.
i can't believe this is my life right now. i'm floored.
i thought it would be different. i tried to make it different.
i need a break, i really do. i need this summer, and i need to go back to everything in september. please.
please, i can't stay here.... i can't stay locked inside this hell right now. i hate it.
there's no way this is happening to me... i feel like i can't let it, but the point is... i have no say, at all.
i have no control over what will happen to me.
i am so upset.
i'm being choked out. i'm being suffocated. i am about to be told that i can't be where i've been most happy anymore. i don't know what to do. i'm seriously losing it. everything is out of my control. i'm being told. i have no choice in anything anymore, and it's eating at me. it's absolutley drowning me.
i'm hoping for the best in a situation i have no control over, i'm hoping there's a way. if there is a way, i hope that god or whatever willing power there is to help me out will do just that, because i can't go back to how it was. 19 is and was supposed to continue to be the best year of my life and in less that 2 days it has turned into the worst. i need to keep going. i've grown so much and i feel that, truly... without lying to myself i feel like i've grown so much as a person and now i'm just back to the same old sour situation.
i really need this. i need my 3rd chance. i don't know what i'm going to do, i really don't. i'm really suffocating.
i feel like the only way i will be able to breathe easy is for this to work out for me. there's really no other option as far as this and as far as i am concerned. i really need this to be one of three things; a warning, a joke, or a nightmare. and i'm hoping it's the first.
i can't believe this is my life right now. i'm floored.
i thought it would be different. i tried to make it different.
i need a break, i really do. i need this summer, and i need to go back to everything in september. please.
please, i can't stay here.... i can't stay locked inside this hell right now. i hate it.
there's no way this is happening to me... i feel like i can't let it, but the point is... i have no say, at all.
i have no control over what will happen to me.
i am so upset.