Well there goes my chance!
Yeah YEah i no your tired of hearing me whin but thats why i mad this thing. Well hes the low done. Preston and Brittany are now going out. And im happy for them. Really. But i seem to always be a the loseing end. Lance left me for Prescot. Not really a big loss though. Then when i finally start to have start to like someone else... Preston... he goes out with another girl. The theres good old Kevin. Since ive nown since like 4th grade and have always thought about. But lost touch with has a girlfriend too. He is so cute and has that whole bad boy but really sinsitive too. Thats so cute when he talks about his feelings. And even though i haven't seen him in a little while i like him more and more everytime i talk to him. We joke about getting married and i think that it would be really funny if in the future we actually did. But i no it osunds like im like desperate. But im really not. I just get lonly whe i see all these cute couples together. Holding hands and kissing. WEll now that i think about it it makes mewant to gag.Or maybe im just jealous. I wish that i could find someone who made me feel special and that there was actually a reason to be around. I think its so cute to listen to Alyssa talk about Rysn. You can tell that she really really likes him. And they bring out the good in each other. I wish that I could find someone like that. Like when COurtney (st. Jean... don't want to offend anyone) talks about shawn. Her whole face lights up and thats how you can tell that she is in love with him. And i think that is so sweet. And Kaity... when travis walks by she can't take her eyes off him. And Briitany who doesn't want to admitt it still will always care about Justin. And i no that it hurts her so bad to listen to all the shit that he talks. And i no that all these people aren't happy couples but if we could jsut learn to not let the world interfer then everything would be fine. You no... i actually had that one time. The whole he brings out the good in me... He makes me feel special... he could make me light up just by the sound of his voice. ANd i no that yall all are thinking lance... but no. There were times when i couldn't stand him. But i kept on. But there was one boy names Micheal who new was the one for me. But we let the world get in the way. We couldn't stay together b/c we couldn't see things agreely. Now i wish we had. But we were still great friends but we new how each other felt. I jsut wish that we could all jsut be honest. Just let each other now how we feel b/c now hes gone and there isn't anyway for him to come back. I no you say easier sad then done. But really... if you could just walk up to that person and be like you don't no how much you mean to me. And them actually understand and feel the same way. That would just be great. But it never happens like that. The world gets in the way. WE worry about what our peers are going to think and about what our family will think. But in the end will it matter. Do what you think is good for u b/c in the end everyone will get over it. And if they don't then there not worth it. And that were COurtney...st jean... comes in. No matter what people say about Shawn. No matter what her friends and family say. She still loves him. She doesn't let the world get in the way. B/c she nos that if we love her like we say we do we will stick by her. And i respect that. NAd i will stand by her. I just hope that she gets what she wants. And as for Kaity i think i need to apologize. We say get over him but if thats not what YOU truly want then don't do it. You should only od things for yourself. And i think thats something i realized today.not sure why but i did. And i no that it is something that i want to start to live by. B/c in the end i will only have myself to blame for the what ifs and onlys. No one else will take the blame so don't do things for them. And you no something in not going to block this b/c i believe that it will be good for people to read this. Then maybe we can learn to be who we want to be not what the world wants us to be. Who cares were we shop or who we "hang" with. And how i got on this subject i will never no b/c i jsut keep going and going. But anyways... i also think that people should consider other peoples feelings when soemthing is said. ANd i no that im not the perfect person to use as an example. In fact im far from perfect. Now a days i say things whan i feel like saying them. The reprocutions never come to me till after i say it. I no that i need to work on that. I no htat i hurt alot of peoples feelings and that alot of that is my fuat. And i will take blame.NAd i will apologize if you think that i have done something to offend you. You just have to bring it to my attention.
One other thing that i don't believe in is how people are mad fun of. either there a dork or a werido or a FAG. hint hint the issue going on at school. Im not saying that i suport gay people. B/c i believe that its wrong. And i believe that it goes against what we are tought. But i also believe that people are aloud to do as they like. They might not agree with everything that you do. I believe that you have a right to sate your opinion but after that let it die. No one wants to hear it over and over again. But one thing that i do agree with is how Chris Conner said... No one did anything about Gabe but if it was him and Amber or some guy and so girl someone whould of said something. And that is wrong. EVERYONE is equal no matter size, shape, intelligence, sexual preference or anything else. Just do what you need to do to keep yourself alive and healthy and everything will be ok. Just think.. 10 years down the road are any of us going to remember what went on in the 10th graade. Probable not. So why worrie about it now. You won't care when you get older so just leave it alone. But thats all i have to say on that subject b/c someone wouldn' let me speak when we were in class and you no who you are so no names have to be used. But i just wish people would actually listen b/c there really is not point to whats going on. Theres no rhyme or reason exceot you want someone to pick on. AND THATS NOT RIGHT. and you can get mad at me all you want. But i havenot offended anyone in theis and it is just my opinion and i no i can't change your mind. But for those who read this you can't say i didn't try. Well i hope everyone now has soemthing to think about. Not saying that your going to but i think some people need to look in the mirror and figure out why they think there so much better then someone else. I no that is one thing that i have to do myself... Bye
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One other thing that i don't believe in is how people are mad fun of. either there a dork or a werido or a FAG. hint hint the issue going on at school. Im not saying that i suport gay people. B/c i believe that its wrong. And i believe that it goes against what we are tought. But i also believe that people are aloud to do as they like. They might not agree with everything that you do. I believe that you have a right to sate your opinion but after that let it die. No one wants to hear it over and over again. But one thing that i do agree with is how Chris Conner said... No one did anything about Gabe but if it was him and Amber or some guy and so girl someone whould of said something. And that is wrong. EVERYONE is equal no matter size, shape, intelligence, sexual preference or anything else. Just do what you need to do to keep yourself alive and healthy and everything will be ok. Just think.. 10 years down the road are any of us going to remember what went on in the 10th graade. Probable not. So why worrie about it now. You won't care when you get older so just leave it alone. But thats all i have to say on that subject b/c someone wouldn' let me speak when we were in class and you no who you are so no names have to be used. But i just wish people would actually listen b/c there really is not point to whats going on. Theres no rhyme or reason exceot you want someone to pick on. AND THATS NOT RIGHT. and you can get mad at me all you want. But i havenot offended anyone in theis and it is just my opinion and i no i can't change your mind. But for those who read this you can't say i didn't try. Well i hope everyone now has soemthing to think about. Not saying that your going to but i think some people need to look in the mirror and figure out why they think there so much better then someone else. I no that is one thing that i have to do myself... Bye
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