I'm Way Too Young For This...
Here's what's got me totally freaked out: A few days ago, one of my friends got engaged. As in to be married. Clearly.
Now, normally, this would be fine. But being only early-college age, I'm totally freaked out by the idea that I am at an age in which my friends get engaged. It's terrifying. What's worse is that I know this feeling is in many ways normal, I just figured I wouldn't experience it until an older age. A much older age. There's like a natural alarm clock that wakes up in women (and men too, possibly) once we reach a certain age and aren't engaged or partnered or regularly sharing a toothbrush with someone else or anything. That's when we are supposed to freak out because it seems all our friends are engaged or married or have children, and we aren't. That's normal. But I'm way too young to already be feeling that pressure, especially since I can barely committ to a haircut, yet another person, and won't be walking down the aisle any time soon. Not soon at all. Possibly never.
Anyway, apparently he proposed at Disneyland on Christmas Eve in front of Cinderella's castle and it was all very romantic and perfect and lovely and such. I'm trying very hard to be happy for her, though I simply cannot bring myself to accept the idea that someone I went to Sunday School with is going to be wearing a wedding dress in six months. It makes me shiver. Literally, I am now shivering.
All of this makes me wonder what's going to happen when all my friends start getting engaged. I think I might join a sect of clustered nuns then.
- Be well :)