The New and Old dont mix well
"The way he holds on to the memory of his mom...his strength..how he shows
everyone he's more than capable of being out on his own and needs no one yet
will open up...when he decides to do something he doesn't stop till its
complete...he's looking for approval and acceptance" This is kris saying why she thinks me and certain character on tv show relate plus why he my favorite character. This is not really what the journal going to be about since there not much to say since I agree with her that sounds a lot like me. No what I'm here to write about is everything...... No small task right? I have written some many journals I dont think I could really write about anything new. So really all I can give you the reader is the same old sob story about my horrible childhood.Yet I really dont want too what I want to do is scream an keep screaming until this angry and pain I feel is gone cause I feel like its suffocating me.Not in the same way it did when I was 16 just like go head and be happy for a little but I'm always here waiting to hit you when you least expect it. How I can feel so strong and yet feel so tired an broken at the same time. I dont have answer and I doubt anyone does it just who I am right.Just like me being scared of the angry inside me it overwhelms me at times.Lately living in this house it seems like its getting harder and harder to hold it back.I know cant explode on Karen or My father for a thousand reasons no of which would solve anything and I'm pretty sure I loose myself long enough to say something too mean.Which to say to them is fine I dont care but its not who I want to be never has been. I guess that it I really dont feel like writing anymore
everyone he's more than capable of being out on his own and needs no one yet
will open up...when he decides to do something he doesn't stop till its
complete...he's looking for approval and acceptance" This is kris saying why she thinks me and certain character on tv show relate plus why he my favorite character. This is not really what the journal going to be about since there not much to say since I agree with her that sounds a lot like me. No what I'm here to write about is everything...... No small task right? I have written some many journals I dont think I could really write about anything new. So really all I can give you the reader is the same old sob story about my horrible childhood.Yet I really dont want too what I want to do is scream an keep screaming until this angry and pain I feel is gone cause I feel like its suffocating me.Not in the same way it did when I was 16 just like go head and be happy for a little but I'm always here waiting to hit you when you least expect it. How I can feel so strong and yet feel so tired an broken at the same time. I dont have answer and I doubt anyone does it just who I am right.Just like me being scared of the angry inside me it overwhelms me at times.Lately living in this house it seems like its getting harder and harder to hold it back.I know cant explode on Karen or My father for a thousand reasons no of which would solve anything and I'm pretty sure I loose myself long enough to say something too mean.Which to say to them is fine I dont care but its not who I want to be never has been. I guess that it I really dont feel like writing anymore