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well right now i feel pretty yucky.i woke up early after going to bed late,i have homework that i should get done,im hungry,im frustrated.sigh whatever.someimes i want to give up seriously.i mean this week was awesome and so relaxing and just rocked so hard but..i know that my moms coming home again and things will just go back to the usual....hectic and i HATE hectic.whats wrong with just relaxing and chilling in the afternoon.whatever i dont want to think about it.and last night was so frustrating because nick was upset about his dad and i had NO freakin clue what to say to make him feel better..i mean i hate to see people i care for upset,and it makes me crazy when i cant help at all.then hyatts being a jerk to eric and eric is the nicest caring kid on this planet,hes like my little brother i swear,and hes going througha rough time an the last thing he needs is people being mean to him about the things that make him happy if that makes any sense at all.maybe im just tired..i dont know but i am seriously ready to cry and i have no reason and no idea why.i HATE to cry.my mom always use to yell at me and scream stop feeling sorry for yourself when i cried...its was like brainwashing me not to cry and to hate crying.you know how people are like its ok to cry,no not me.i was taught crying is bad and a horrible thing and if you do it you're wrong.not by my dad though hes kewl hes the kewlest dad ever.i feel really emo,thats lame.well im going to my dads soon and were gonna go to the beach :) thats uplifting and nicks coming YAY :D
sometimes i scare myself,i need self control
right so where was i??i dont know but everyone please dont tink im like sad or depressed im just....tired.what else is new?right everyone have a great weekend
OOOOOOOOOOO the park vista game rocked and i saw my jen jen and john!and lots of ppl i havent seen in forever!it was awesome and we marched so freakin good!!!!! ok i feel better im a freak
i <3 creamcheese :)
sometimes i scare myself,i need self control
right so where was i??i dont know but everyone please dont tink im like sad or depressed im just....tired.what else is new?right everyone have a great weekend
OOOOOOOOOOO the park vista game rocked and i saw my jen jen and john!and lots of ppl i havent seen in forever!it was awesome and we marched so freakin good!!!!! ok i feel better im a freak
i <3 creamcheese :)