Happy New Year!
Well my New year's eve was uneventful, my family was in Kentucky and I felt a little under the weather so I stayed home by myself in my pj's and watched in on tv then fell asleep on the couch shortly after. To date I have not had a New Year's kiss. I've always wanted that but it seems like it never happens that way. Actually I've been a bit confused on something I did a couple weeks ago. I was hanging out with a guy who knows who he is and I told him I loved him. I've said it before on instant messaging and whatever but never out loud to him. He didn't say anything back to me and I really didn't expect him to but ever since then he's been a little distant towards me. I'm scared that my saying that has pushed him away. I mean it's not like we haven't known each other for a long time cuz we have, I've always been too scared to say it to him, but I couldn't keep it inside anymore. It's been on my mind though ever since then and I keep wanting to ask him if it bothered him that I said that but I guess I'm a little scared of the answer. I know I've said it before that I have never felt this way before about anyone and it's true, I loved Bob but it's not like this. Kinda like a feeling where you would rather be alone for the rest of your life than to be without this person. His b-day is coming up and I would like very much to hang out with him for it but I don't know if he wants me to. I keep telling myself to back off but then I think maybe he'll think I don't care. I don't know what to do anymore....