life is like a book you read in reverse...you understand less as the pages turn

[madameveggie]

ok, so my parents are confusing me about this whole college thing. i thought i had my mind made up to go into the city and go to SVA. That is where i thought my parents wanted me to be, however, when i shared this with them they told me that i was a "nieve little country girl" who has very little street smarts and i wouldnt last in NYC. They told me that i was too young to know what i wanted to do and it would be such a waste should i go to the city and find out film/video is not what i want to do. damnit, i thought i had my mind made up but what my parents told me made me uneasy so i think that i am going to have to go to Kean. There is no way in hell i'd ever go to Kutztown like my parents want me to. It's way out in the middle of fucking no-where and all the kids were these preps who liked to kick soccer balls around.(I don't want another VHS!!). and so, Kean it is. i suppose thats all right with me. its my second choice anyway. they're right, i probably wouldn't last long in the city anyway. i'll be content.

In other oh-so-very-fascinating news, i hung around with Marty in a Taco Bell for two hours, just talking, and then went to the mall and then we went to TGI Fridays with Jenna, Alissa, Alissa's boyfriend Danny, and Jake. it was a barrels of fun fun fun!

I woke up this morning with a knot in my stomach, convinced that it was going to be a terrible-horrible-no-good-very-bad day. and it turned out to be a good day but i'm still tied up in knots. This happens a lot. i don't know whats wrong with me. oh well...SIGN OFF, KIDS!!