Just an update.

[madameprez]

So... this semester is getting to me pretty hard. Good news first- I'm back at my apartment for the duration (is that a good thing?) I got initiated into the Sigma Phi chapter of Sigma Alpha Iota :) That makes me so happy. Lets see, I was kinda sick on Sunday, and this week has just been a blur of running around trying to make everything happen. I'm pretty sure I had a small nervous breakdown last night, and I ended up talking to my Grandma for about an hour. I think it was even a bonding experience... I love her so much. I find it pathetic however, that I can cry for two hours and not feel any better. Deep down there is some hurt and confusion that just isn't going away... Last night, I really just wanted to be able to see my parents face to face because I have a lot I need to say to them. In other news- I am broke. I do not have a dollar to my name, and I owe money... !@#$%^&*()_+ I have friends who are starting to feel neglected which is killing me, but I have no solution for that problem. Unfortunatly, I come first (which isn't to say that I'm enjoying myself... that means I've been studying, practicing, and working), so I can't always be there for everybody, which some people are having a hard time understanding. I still love everyone, and I'm sorry if I'm on hiatus. Just try to understand.
So, I asked my mother if I could ask for anything for my birthday. She said depends on what it is. I asked for the two one way plane tickets I need and she said, No because that would be supporting your band thing.... I lost it. I probably scared the crap out of Jeremy (he was driving). That triggered my entire night of lock-down cry my eyes out, wallow in pity time... How the hell am I supposed to get from Atlanta to Minneapolis, and then Madison WI, back to Atlanta??? This just means I have to find more sponsors...

Sorry I'm so depressing and not a good friend anymore.