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I went to bed tonight after watching VH1's Driven: Green Day and fantasizing about one day having my friends talk about some hugely successful band that I'm apart of. I went to bed thinking that Megan either forgot to call me or got off work way too late to call me. The phone rang and since i was already in bed and knowing that she was calling me to go hang out and do something i declined to answer. When i look at the phone screen to see if she left a message i realized what day it is and what significance this day has. I've always felt like my life didnt begin until i fell in love for the first time. Well, 5 years ago today is when my life started. I look back on whats happened in the past five years and how things are different now. I live with my mom in the west end of davenport and all i can think about is music. Then, i lived in a nice house in north Davenport and all i could think about then was golf. My sister just got married to Scott...she's now married to Ben with a child on the way. Things were comfortable back then apart from the antics of my dad's second wife (now on his third). I was downloading thousands of songs on Napster for free with a cable modem. Now, that stuff is illegal and i have dial-up thats so bad that i cant hear any songs through the internet...not even my own! Then, the Smashing Pumpkins were breaking up and i could care less. Now, they speak of a reunion and I'm on pins and needles. I hated jazz, or what i thought was jazz then. Now, i'm a jazz musician. Today, originally, was supposed to celebrated all around by that girl i fell in love with. We kicked things off on her sister's birthday. She told her sister all about me and how much she loved me and how we'd be together forever and how it is so cute that it all started on her sister's birthday. Now, we dont even talk and her sister is dead.
I've learned to embrace changes. They can be absolutely wonderful. Where would i be if her and i were still together. I certainly wouldnt have made such an effort to make new friends if it hadnt been for her and i breaking up. I wouldnt have re-met Devin and gotten involved with music. I wouldnt have fallen in love with Brigid (yes, i was in love with you despite what you said in your memoirs) or made friends with every single one of my friends. What I' saying is that this day does have a dark side depending on how you look at it. Yeah, my heart got broken...shattered, and its not like didnt destroy hers either. And her sister has died. But this is a day of birth. Her sister came into this world and made people laugh, smile and inspired so many kids. Comparing her life to the start of mine seems selfish. Oh, i'm rambling. I still enjoy this day. Its still a stellar day.
I've got to talk about Monday night and how much of a life altering experience it was...next time.
love!
I've learned to embrace changes. They can be absolutely wonderful. Where would i be if her and i were still together. I certainly wouldnt have made such an effort to make new friends if it hadnt been for her and i breaking up. I wouldnt have re-met Devin and gotten involved with music. I wouldnt have fallen in love with Brigid (yes, i was in love with you despite what you said in your memoirs) or made friends with every single one of my friends. What I' saying is that this day does have a dark side depending on how you look at it. Yeah, my heart got broken...shattered, and its not like didnt destroy hers either. And her sister has died. But this is a day of birth. Her sister came into this world and made people laugh, smile and inspired so many kids. Comparing her life to the start of mine seems selfish. Oh, i'm rambling. I still enjoy this day. Its still a stellar day.
I've got to talk about Monday night and how much of a life altering experience it was...next time.
love!