REGRESS...
Hey everyone...There's something y'all probably don't know about me. I'm deathly afraid of older men (35 to old). I hate going out places, especially grocery stores. Just seeing older men scares the hell out of me. Seeing them look at me, wanting to put their wrinkly perverted hands all over me *shivers*. I can't deal with it.
Tonight..this man came to pick up his dog. You could smell the alcohol all over him. When i went to give him his change he grabbed my hand, rubbing his thumb against it... So when i was in the back helping mom with the dog, everytime he'd go to pet the dog i'd move my hand away. I was already freaking out. Then, when i went to give him the dog's collar he did it again!!! I wanted to scream "pervert," i wanted to cry, i wanted to puke. I still want to puke, i want to breathe. My heart is racing. I hate my fear coming closer every chance.
I freak out the same when i'm touched by guys, no not skyler and carl, but other guys. How can i explain that i'm so afraid of the thought of rape or pedofiles! I'm shaking... I need help. I need something.
FUCK, i need drugs...
Tonight..this man came to pick up his dog. You could smell the alcohol all over him. When i went to give him his change he grabbed my hand, rubbing his thumb against it... So when i was in the back helping mom with the dog, everytime he'd go to pet the dog i'd move my hand away. I was already freaking out. Then, when i went to give him the dog's collar he did it again!!! I wanted to scream "pervert," i wanted to cry, i wanted to puke. I still want to puke, i want to breathe. My heart is racing. I hate my fear coming closer every chance.
I freak out the same when i'm touched by guys, no not skyler and carl, but other guys. How can i explain that i'm so afraid of the thought of rape or pedofiles! I'm shaking... I need help. I need something.
FUCK, i need drugs...