Trying to be a grownup and do actual productive life things is super hard. >:
Like getting set up with a new doctor. I haven’t been to a doctor in years -- years -- and with my rampant anxiety, just the idea of calling some unknown office is terrifying. I barely know what I’m doing; what if I ask a stupid question and they make fun of me? I’ve done all my research, but what if I get through all the nerve-wracking phone calls and set-up and then get there to find I don’t have what they need (wrong records, wrong insurance, etc.) and it was all for nothing?
I’ve done some research at this point and I think I know where I’m going to try to go (and just getting that far has taken way longer than is realistic for a normal, functional human being). But then I figured I should probably contact my last doctor (whom I saw exactly once) to try and get my medical records, and I can’t even log into the stupid site or reset my password since I no longer have access to the email address I used.
sob
why does everything involve phone calls
why do I have to fear the phone so much
why can’t I just do normal life things like a normal person
it shouldn’t even be hard
I suppose at least I know the next step. I can’t call the office today because they’re on the easy coast and already closed since I couldn’t get myself out of bed until two p.m. today. sigh
“maybe tomorrow”
might as well be my personal mantra
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I’ve done some research at this point and I think I know where I’m going to try to go (and just getting that far has taken way longer than is realistic for a normal, functional human being). But then I figured I should probably contact my last doctor (whom I saw exactly once) to try and get my medical records, and I can’t even log into the stupid site or reset my password since I no longer have access to the email address I used.
sob
why does everything involve phone calls
why do I have to fear the phone so much
why can’t I just do normal life things like a normal person
it shouldn’t even be hard
I suppose at least I know the next step. I can’t call the office today because they’re on the easy coast and already closed since I couldn’t get myself out of bed until two p.m. today. sigh
“maybe tomorrow”
might as well be my personal mantra
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