"well make it, swim in a deep sea of blankets, take all your bigs plans and break em...

[ma_koolaide]

So, last night ended ok. I slept in the car to and from Jen's last night, then eventually fell asleep after dinner for an hour. I gave Bobby his box back, and his ring. I think it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do but I needed to do it. I gave him everything, but a teddy, his romeo and Juliet book and a letter that I was not going to go searching for. It was hard listening to Derek last night, express his feelings towards David, and how envious he is towards him. I have been thinking lately, and I don't think I could ever be drawn to a guy like David because I don't know. I don't know how i can reassure Derek that..he is the only guy that I have my eyes on *shrugs* I just wish that some day I can...
The kids are on thier way over so I will write later
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