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i am really proud of myself. i dont care to have anything serious, but if it happens.. it happens i guess. but im really surprised at how well i am doing. it was like one day i woke up and just realized.. i think that it was a learning experience along with many other things i have gone thru.
i finally have an idea for my tattoo... im excited.
there are so many things i wish i could say to you. i have grown up so much. being around ur friends is awesome, but it does make me miss you.. the ridiculous situations i find myself in and knowing how youd react to them is pretty amusing.
i am glad some things are done. i am free. i love life.
its weird how some relationships never really end, but others have to. to be honest i am not sure what would have made Brian and i completely end. we would fight horribly sometimes, but he was my bestfriend and he dealt with all my shit and me with his. we always forgave and moved on. we understood and trusted eachother. i cant even imagine having that with someone else. i knew in any situation what he would say, do, think.. anything. he was always there for me. i cant think of something that happened within the 2 years of us dating that he didnt help me thru. my brothers going to iraq, my dad going to maine for most of the summer, my sister gettin married and moving out, the first funeral i ever went to, my uncle passin away as well, the shit i went thru.. how does one person deal with so much?
everytime i go to sleep i think about lookin at the wall of ur then new house and thinking that how i was positioned was the most comfortable place. perfectly matched puzzle pieces. i miss you so much Brian.
however sometimes you find a puzzle piece that resembles the one you're looking for.. and you try to force it into the place just so you can finish.. but it doesnt work.
sometimes you do that.
i finally have an idea for my tattoo... im excited.
there are so many things i wish i could say to you. i have grown up so much. being around ur friends is awesome, but it does make me miss you.. the ridiculous situations i find myself in and knowing how youd react to them is pretty amusing.
i am glad some things are done. i am free. i love life.
its weird how some relationships never really end, but others have to. to be honest i am not sure what would have made Brian and i completely end. we would fight horribly sometimes, but he was my bestfriend and he dealt with all my shit and me with his. we always forgave and moved on. we understood and trusted eachother. i cant even imagine having that with someone else. i knew in any situation what he would say, do, think.. anything. he was always there for me. i cant think of something that happened within the 2 years of us dating that he didnt help me thru. my brothers going to iraq, my dad going to maine for most of the summer, my sister gettin married and moving out, the first funeral i ever went to, my uncle passin away as well, the shit i went thru.. how does one person deal with so much?
everytime i go to sleep i think about lookin at the wall of ur then new house and thinking that how i was positioned was the most comfortable place. perfectly matched puzzle pieces. i miss you so much Brian.
however sometimes you find a puzzle piece that resembles the one you're looking for.. and you try to force it into the place just so you can finish.. but it doesnt work.
sometimes you do that.