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there was a lot of weird stuff about Scrubs, characters from Scrubs, specifically Turk and Carla, with a little Zach Braff (as Zach Braff, not JD) towards the end, but also Zach Braff was sort of Che. anyway, the two big things i remember are that i was going to have some major surgery on my throat tomorrow and i was terrified. terrified of how painful and uncomfortable it would be while it was healing, terrified of the swelling and not being able to breathe well or eat. what would i eat? thin pureed soups? how would i eat meat? what if i got hypoglycemic? i think i decided not to have the surgery just because i was too scared, but then there was always the possibility that whatever was wrong with my throat would get worse and that might make things even worse than if i'd had the surgery. i didn't know what to do. and the other part was right at the end of my dream, i was riding some skateboard like vehicle in downtown ithaca, a little swervy and out of control, but also impressively IN control, and then that was gone and i was walking somewhere, but there was construction and a detour. i just followed the clear path and it led me up a mountain. i trudged faithfully on. it led me into deep snow drifts that almost swallowed me, but i pushed the snow away with my arms and pulled myself through it and back to the clear path. i got past the snow and walked through a camp of construction guys, or hikers, or loggers, big dudes up in the mountains. marty was with me this whole while. i continued on my way. i could see the path wind off into the distance among the rocks and grasses. it was overcast. marty stopped as if he was going back to the camp, not coming with me. i wanted him to come with me, but i couldn't stop if he didn't. i continued on. that's when i woke up. i was sad when i woke up, i wanted to see where the path led and i was vaguely conscious of the fact that this might mean something psychologically, so i was interested in that, but also i was just enjoying the treck. i like hiking in the mountains. it was beautiful and the air was fresh.