killing time...
Oh my god. I love that life loves to fuck with me. Ok Seth and i decided to call it quits while he is gone. This leaves a very difficult decision for me to make. to get over him, move on and if fate should bring us back together so be it, or wait, say single while he's gone and see if we might work out when he comes back. I don't know what I'm going to do yet. But here's the horrible twist. I had no idea there would be other guys waiting for a shot at being with me. There is the cook, which he's a nice guy and all, but he's not really thinking long term. And then this other guy comes along, he's been a friend forever, and he wants me, not for a little while, but for as long as he can keep me, and he wasn't afraid to say it... and well he kissed me. and I wanted to feel the same, but with my mind not made up about seth, I just couldn't. Fuck. I hate this bullshit.