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m_allan

weell....

Feb 11, 2007 00:18

I don't know...

Had gaming night this Saturday (the one at SIU, as opposed to the newer group at Logan).

Dunno what to think... just not really "meshing" with these guys, and I get the feeling maybe the feeling is mutual. Try to relax, play the game, have fun, but I don't know, my annoyance at their inane jokes and constant, game-delaying chatting ( Read more... )

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lilkittyangel February 11 2007, 17:59:20 UTC

You know, I've been reading your journal for a while, and it does seem like you seem to be facing the same problems over and over. If I were you, I'd really think hard about the whole moving out issue. To me, it seems like staying in a stifling environment like that just can't be good for you mentally, and it's probably affecting your sociality (is that a word? lol we're just making up all kinds of words these days I guess). Anyway! I think the roleplaying idea is actually a great idea. It sounds like a good way to do some self-evaluation as well, like think about where you could've done things differently and how to talk to people when you meet them IRL.

Good luck!

m_allan February 11 2007, 19:24:53 UTC

Well, yeah, the whole "not making friends" and depression are things I've been dealing with in one form or another pretty much most of my life.

Moving out? Well, we're working on it.. hoping I'll get a decent tax refund and maybe I could use that for the first month's rent. Still job hunting, but that's been going slow...

We'll keep you updated.

lilkittyangel February 12 2007, 02:10:04 UTC

You get refunds?? For what?? Oh, I have so much to learn about the world...

Who's we, btw? Do you have a siamese twin you're not telling me about? :P

astronomer4 February 12 2007, 03:06:30 UTC

Here's how tax refunds work: The government takes money out of your paycheck every week as your tax deduction so they can be able to run the system. The amount they take out, though, is just a guess of how much you would make throughout the year. At the end of the year you find out how much you really made, and if the government took too much money from you (meaning you made less money than they thought you would) you get that money back. If you made more money than they thought, then you owe the government that money. And that is what taxes are all about.

lilkittyangel February 12 2007, 03:24:31 UTC

Huh. So if they take a million dollars and you make nothing, you're a millionaire?

This country is SO weird.

astronomer4 February 12 2007, 18:12:38 UTC

Not exactly... If you make nothing, then they having nothing from which to take money. So if you make nothing, they'll take nothing, and you'll end up with nothing in the end. One good thing though is that if you make less than some number (2K, 3K maybe?) you get ALL of your tax money back that they took from you over the year. I guess they figure if you're making less than $3,000 a year you need all the help you can get.

lilkittyangel February 12 2007, 21:45:38 UTC

Wow... that's a little too much for my poor brain to handle o_O LOL yeah if you're making 3k a year you're, um, not doing too well at life I'm guessing.

m_allan February 14 2007, 04:23:27 UTC

Oddly enough, I think that's about what I made last year... Or was it 5k? I know, I didn't clear 6K....

lilkittyangel February 14 2007, 18:40:57 UTC

LOL no kidding. I feel sorry for you, then. Of course, I make $40 a month (allowance), so that's only $480... I guess we BOTH fail. XD

m_allan February 15 2007, 01:44:48 UTC

That why you need to do good in school, so you don't end up like me. ;)

lilkittyangel February 15 2007, 03:22:55 UTC

WOW, my mom said the exact same thing O_O

What do you think went wrong with your life?? I mean, you're going to college now, right? That's not a bad thing...

m_allan February 15 2007, 05:03:07 UTC

>What do you think went wrong with your life?? I mean,
>you're going to college now, right? That's not a bad
>thing...

Man, where should I start?

I think the biggest prob was waaay back in the time of pre-creation, there was a giant conveyor belt moving along with a steady rhythm. On this belt was an unending line of all the souls that will ever be. Workers stood nearby, grabbing the souls off the belt, and then stuck them in tubes where they were wisked away to whatever time/place they were supposed to be born. Problem is, the belt got stuck momentarily, and I stopped in front of some guy who had been momentarily distracted by something. He turned back around, and, seeing my soul next to him, shrugged, picked me up and sent me down the wrong pipe, causing me to be born in the wrong time (and possibly wrong planet.)

In seriousness...

I guess the biggest thing was not seeking help sooner for my depression.

Yeah, I'm going to college know, so maybe that'll help me out.

lilkittyangel February 16 2007, 04:01:09 UTC

Wow, ok, that's going back a bit farther than I thought... lol. Hmm. I've been told I DO exhibit some signs of depression (i.e. excessive sleeping and violent mood swings) but I chalked that up to teenagerness. I don't want to be one of those "my life sucks" super-divas that seek therapy just because they want someone to listen to their boring problems, but I'm thinking I do need to work on some of my mental issues.

m_allan February 16 2007, 21:42:40 UTC

Well, that depends on a lot of things. Everyone gets down and bluesy sometimes, that's just life, especially as a teenager, what with your body changing and trying to find the balance between turning from a kid into an adult and all ( ... )

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