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I've made a lot of mistakes in my 19 years..but who hasn't? There are some that I'd like to take back because they really didn't teach me anything...but there are some that I would never let go of, becuase they taught me things. Things, that if I didn't know them, I would simply end up making the same mistake twice, or more. I didn't mean for what happened to happen, it just did. I don't regret doing it, I regret who I did it with. Not becuase of who he is really, but what he wasn't to me. I want a relationship. I want a man in my life that is willing to just hold me and fall asleep, over and over again. I want all that I am entitled to in a relationship, but I want to take each step as slow as possible. I want to be loved. I want to know what it feels like to have true devotion from another person. To think about that other person in each decision you make throughout your day. That's what I want. And hopefully soon I'll be able to give it and recieve it.