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Feeling a little anxious lately yet lethargic. It's weird to have an anxiety issue with anemia. Not a fun feeling at all. I'm trying not to be terrified of school but it's not really working out so well. Just, memories of last semester haunt me and things have gotten off to an even worse start this semester. We haven't even recieved our benchmarks (weekly schedule of what we will be teaching/doing in the classroom we're placed in) yet and we start teaching Wednesday. The best part, we won't GET the benchmarks until Tuesday afternoon. We have to be planning lessons when we don't even know what grade we have. We've got sporadic assignments and meetings that have been run solely by the grapevine. Oh, and did I mention we don't even HAVE our placements yet? One week left before we have to start teaching and we don't even know where we're going or what grade our kids are in. But we'll find that out Tuesday afternoon, too. *sigh*. I hate this program. I can't wait to get out where people actually have their shit together. I'm too scattered of a person myself to keep up with the faculty's scatterdness. It stresses me out and I really can't find any way of making myself not worry about it. I've got to do well. I've got to know what's going on. I've got to keep ahead of myself or I'll drown. And there's just nothing I can do but go with it...I'm trying to work on that whole philosophy of life. Just go with it...
Any suggestions?
Any suggestions?