His loss

[m0rbid42o]

I've decided that it was his loss. I was going to give him so much, and I would have done anything to make him happy. But he threw it all away when he decided to try to get with Callen. He's probably already cheated on me, but I'm not crying. LoL. I'm fucking happy. You know, I'll always have a spot in my heart for him. But it'll end up being one of those, "I need to remember you so I don't make the same mistake again" kind of spots. HEHEHE! My whole perspective on it all is, FUCK U JOEL! Because now I honestly believe I deserve so much better. And I hope that the next poor victim he takes in, if any - lmfao -, doesn't get hurt. This is so real though. I should have realized he never really wanted me. And I think I did, but he let me believe him. I let myself believe him. I guess he just covered it up by spending so much money on me. I mean, why would you spend money that you work for, on someone you don't care about? I think he was doing it so that he could cover his guilt. But that's ok. Because I never spent anything on him. LMFAO Besides, I got a lot out of him. So, I'm not suffering at all. I feel so much better about all of this today. And thank you to everyone who's been helping me. Evan, Chas, Callen, Kyle, Stacy, Mandy, Mike, EVERYONE! Thank you guys. I really appriciate you being there. I love you guys :D
Alright, time to go :D I'm gonna go hang out with Stacy, try to find a ride to Kirksville and go party. HEHEHEHEHE! L8r everyone.