lets hear it for the end
I broke up with joel.
Callen showed me an email he sent her today. Yeah, it was one of those, "I really liked you, you're so special to me, I miss you" kind of emails. Well, after that I broke down, and called my mom. That's when I did my last entry. I started feeling ok.. then like, my dad started screaming at me. And I cried MORE! THEN after everything was done that he told me to do, I talked to Callen. She and I called Joel on 3 way so I could bust him and have proof. He hit on her and flirted and said that because Greg was over, was a good excuse for me not to call. That, and when he told me that no one was allowed to stay the night anymore, it was because he didn't want me over there anymore. He never loved me. And I should have known that. It was all about the sex I guess?
XxsIcFISHhatErxX: y does he hate me?
sleepwiththedead: cuz "your a filthy skanky ho bag of a bitch"
I really liked that. Let me tell you, I smiled so big. :( I cried a lot. I'm still crying.I still love him. I fucking hate him! But I'm always going to love him. All he could say after he figured out that I was on the phone was, "Don't call back." What a pussy. I just don't understand. But oh well. I'll hurt for fucking ever. Then I'll be vulnerable again and find someone else. Someone who treats me worse. I just keep going down hill. All guys always start out thinking of how great I am, and then they all end up saying the same thing "Don't call back." I'm god awful I guess. I must really be hated. Oh well. Fuck it all. I'm numb again. None of this was worth it. None of it.
Callen showed me an email he sent her today. Yeah, it was one of those, "I really liked you, you're so special to me, I miss you" kind of emails. Well, after that I broke down, and called my mom. That's when I did my last entry. I started feeling ok.. then like, my dad started screaming at me. And I cried MORE! THEN after everything was done that he told me to do, I talked to Callen. She and I called Joel on 3 way so I could bust him and have proof. He hit on her and flirted and said that because Greg was over, was a good excuse for me not to call. That, and when he told me that no one was allowed to stay the night anymore, it was because he didn't want me over there anymore. He never loved me. And I should have known that. It was all about the sex I guess?
XxsIcFISHhatErxX: y does he hate me?
sleepwiththedead: cuz "your a filthy skanky ho bag of a bitch"
I really liked that. Let me tell you, I smiled so big. :( I cried a lot. I'm still crying.I still love him. I fucking hate him! But I'm always going to love him. All he could say after he figured out that I was on the phone was, "Don't call back." What a pussy. I just don't understand. But oh well. I'll hurt for fucking ever. Then I'll be vulnerable again and find someone else. Someone who treats me worse. I just keep going down hill. All guys always start out thinking of how great I am, and then they all end up saying the same thing "Don't call back." I'm god awful I guess. I must really be hated. Oh well. Fuck it all. I'm numb again. None of this was worth it. None of it.