ugh
ok i am feeling all depressed lately and idon't know why, i mean i do but like i rather not say. I find myself thinkin and thinkin and takeing on more of anth's charicteristics which isn't bad nessaseraly. and i just think that i need to brgin is out somewhat. like when your around me you'll never know i'm always happy. i don't want to bug everyone with my problams. like lew is such a great guy and all but the thing is , even frank said it. he has learned how to have emotions yet. like he's all cool and everything but i guess he just isn't relationship mature. sure he says he loves me but does he feel it? i mean he isn't even half as sweet as frank is to shelley. and when we talk and all it's just like talkin to a friend. which isn't bad it's just i need a boyfriend who can be a boyfriend. i'm not sayin i wanna break up with him and stuff it's just a little wierd. he really seems like he enjoys being out with his frends then talkin to me and stuff. i'm not saying deffinataly cause i'm not the type of person to jump on you and draw conclusions. but i have to go out with dinae now so... i'll write later.............. ok it's later so he says he ahas experienced them but he dens't likeshow them w/e i don't care nor do i know and i guess i never will