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I think it's stopped now.
I think everyone has finished arguing.
Though it'll probobly resume later on.
I can't hack it. living with your friends is a fucking stupid idea. I want to live on my own with a dog. And never see anyone. Well, maybe see people sometimes.
The attitude from this place could probobly have been seen from outer fucking space this week. And the source of the attitude? Don't look at me. For once, it wasn't mine. Caty went away. She definatly got it right. I would have if I could have.
I understand that it's been a tough week and the anniversary is this week but theres just no need for bitch and nastiness. And what was said about The Pez the other day wasn't on. Ok, so maybe I misheard it or misunderstood it... But I'm not so sure. It made me sad. I wasn't aware that something so simple could hurt so much. I'm giving up on that, anyway. SO EVERYONE CELEBRATE BECAUSE YOU GOT YOUR OWN WAY AND IM STILL ALONE.
I kind of feel ok about it now, I just thought I'd write this down in case I forgot. I duno how I feel today. I know that I certainly can't be arsed. I've got work in a bit = cba. Gota go to Topshop on the way to buy a new t shirt. I bet they don't have any and I have to work looking like this.
Oh yeah. I got a job. The George in Soho. It's only my second shift but hopefully it'll work out. I need the money... I need an SLR. JOnathan and I spoke about my placement today... I still don't knwo what I want to do. Either photgraphing rehersals or teaching movement classes to deprived kids. The latter would probobly be more of an experience culturally.. OI said I'd look into it, Sylva says she knows a girl who teaches English in Hong Kong and Jonathan knows a woman who teachs in Sri Lanka. I might talk to Jess about St Lucia, too.
Had a really nice chat with Heide the other night. She makes me laugh :-) We spke about Sarah&Dyl, and Jason and Bangface and NYE. Laura's Mum has died, so Jared is staying with Heide. I need to pick up so I'm gona go over there next week I reckon, see how I feel. I wana give Jared big cuddles and play angry chicken... I can imagine how he's feeling right now. He's started doing pills again, too, though Heide said it won't be very often. Apparently he was soopa messy the other night. I wish I'd have been there to see it, mwaaaha. AND. Jason isn't going out with the Slovakian girl... I said that I'd rather see him unhappy than without me and Heide laughed. God I'm a cunt. But. He's not unhappy, so it's ok. *grin* Also, I described him as a little light bulb in a dark room. He lights up my dark room <3 Hahaha edam.
And then there's Dave. We started speaking again. He says he sorry lots. I think he wants me back. He asked me when he could come and stay and I said 'No offence, but I don't ever want to see you again' and he was like 'Not even as mates?' 'No, because I can't see you and not sleep with you.' And we spoke about James and he cried. I think he was drunk when he cried about James.
He aske dme for my number and rang my phone with his new number, but I was in a mood so I didn't save it. I was in a strange mood on Wednesday, probobly because I was upset about Pez and Gemma, so I decided to text him. Then I got para that it wasn't him I'd text. I'd just said Hi and asked how his weekend was, saying that I went to Tidy and stuff. So anyway I phoned him and he told me how he'd lost his phone again or something but he still had the SIM. He does talk shit sometimes. He'd been doing loads of gabba and mdma and ELEPHANT ket. Which is sexy. And he's still dealing. Hm.
I still want him... I still like speaking to him, but I have to just tell myself not to be stupid... He's bad for me in so many different ways. And I know that if I let msyelf fall in love with him, he'll fuck me over again. Iuno.
I can't be arsed to write anymore. OH GOD I have to go to work sooooooooooon.
I think everyone has finished arguing.
Though it'll probobly resume later on.
I can't hack it. living with your friends is a fucking stupid idea. I want to live on my own with a dog. And never see anyone. Well, maybe see people sometimes.
The attitude from this place could probobly have been seen from outer fucking space this week. And the source of the attitude? Don't look at me. For once, it wasn't mine. Caty went away. She definatly got it right. I would have if I could have.
I understand that it's been a tough week and the anniversary is this week but theres just no need for bitch and nastiness. And what was said about The Pez the other day wasn't on. Ok, so maybe I misheard it or misunderstood it... But I'm not so sure. It made me sad. I wasn't aware that something so simple could hurt so much. I'm giving up on that, anyway. SO EVERYONE CELEBRATE BECAUSE YOU GOT YOUR OWN WAY AND IM STILL ALONE.
I kind of feel ok about it now, I just thought I'd write this down in case I forgot. I duno how I feel today. I know that I certainly can't be arsed. I've got work in a bit = cba. Gota go to Topshop on the way to buy a new t shirt. I bet they don't have any and I have to work looking like this.
Oh yeah. I got a job. The George in Soho. It's only my second shift but hopefully it'll work out. I need the money... I need an SLR. JOnathan and I spoke about my placement today... I still don't knwo what I want to do. Either photgraphing rehersals or teaching movement classes to deprived kids. The latter would probobly be more of an experience culturally.. OI said I'd look into it, Sylva says she knows a girl who teaches English in Hong Kong and Jonathan knows a woman who teachs in Sri Lanka. I might talk to Jess about St Lucia, too.
Had a really nice chat with Heide the other night. She makes me laugh :-) We spke about Sarah&Dyl, and Jason and Bangface and NYE. Laura's Mum has died, so Jared is staying with Heide. I need to pick up so I'm gona go over there next week I reckon, see how I feel. I wana give Jared big cuddles and play angry chicken... I can imagine how he's feeling right now. He's started doing pills again, too, though Heide said it won't be very often. Apparently he was soopa messy the other night. I wish I'd have been there to see it, mwaaaha. AND. Jason isn't going out with the Slovakian girl... I said that I'd rather see him unhappy than without me and Heide laughed. God I'm a cunt. But. He's not unhappy, so it's ok. *grin* Also, I described him as a little light bulb in a dark room. He lights up my dark room <3 Hahaha edam.
And then there's Dave. We started speaking again. He says he sorry lots. I think he wants me back. He asked me when he could come and stay and I said 'No offence, but I don't ever want to see you again' and he was like 'Not even as mates?' 'No, because I can't see you and not sleep with you.' And we spoke about James and he cried. I think he was drunk when he cried about James.
He aske dme for my number and rang my phone with his new number, but I was in a mood so I didn't save it. I was in a strange mood on Wednesday, probobly because I was upset about Pez and Gemma, so I decided to text him. Then I got para that it wasn't him I'd text. I'd just said Hi and asked how his weekend was, saying that I went to Tidy and stuff. So anyway I phoned him and he told me how he'd lost his phone again or something but he still had the SIM. He does talk shit sometimes. He'd been doing loads of gabba and mdma and ELEPHANT ket. Which is sexy. And he's still dealing. Hm.
I still want him... I still like speaking to him, but I have to just tell myself not to be stupid... He's bad for me in so many different ways. And I know that if I let msyelf fall in love with him, he'll fuck me over again. Iuno.
I can't be arsed to write anymore. OH GOD I have to go to work sooooooooooon.