adderall... and the rest of you...

[m00n_dust]

i wonder... if perhaps...

that is the only sign that i will get...
that it is...
time.
to let you go...

you don't want me.
and never did... i think...

and you're ready to let go...

sometimes i think there are small pieces of myself... wrapped up in all that i believed you were... all that you were to me...

but you lie to me. just like you did then.
and you don't try...
just like before...

and nothing has changed.
i still chase you.
but i won't anymore.

tonight they showed me... they did... that this was a useless waste of my time...

they... who so adore you...
understand exactly what i mean...
when i say...
'hit or miss'... 'can't win'

i'm ready. to be me.
i want to be your friend...
but this time... i won't kill me trying...

i move out in a couple days...
don't ask me what i think about that...
i have no idea...
only that i dread it...

and i wonder... what goes on inside me...
when i'm not looking...