stepping aside... to find what lies before you...

[m00n_dust]

perhaps it is the season...

but i am struggling at enjoying life right now.
i miss comfort, despite the better that i have found.

learning yourself is the most difficult part of life i think...
its hard.
spending time with me.
getting to know me.
without limitation... without people holding me back, down...

i find myself falling into this sickening patern...
of silence with myself.
of hating myself.

i suppose no matter how much i have told myself i don't anymore...
it has to be true before it is true...

i don't even know where to start.
all the 'improvements' to make... things to change...
or, perhaps, there is nothing.
only... to accept... what is...
that might be harder...

and now... my mind is off wondering around, without me...