oh. shit.
i have come to the realization that despite my efforts in the last few years that i quite possibly will never actually succeed... in escaping the never-ending grasp of my father's laws and regulations... in uncovering the me which has been burried under years-worth of utter bullshit and neglect.
i may never become something great.
i may never help anyone.
but... the one thing- that always keeps me sane...
is my ability to destroy.
now observe: as i wreck my life over someone who will move on without me in a number of useless years... forgetting that they ever promised to love me for forever... and spend their life with me.
ah yes.
i can smell it burning. already.
see the smoke.
it will be bad.
all of it.
when i finish with it.
i'll love you.
they'll discover us.
and my life will become ruins.
of something great? hardly.
just me.
but wait. this brings us back to point one.
me.
i am the problem. in both my lives.
and each of them blame one another...
i love you.
you say you love me.
so... do it. love me.
like i love you.
i dare you.
to surrender one thing. for someone you "love"...
and i'll bet you... that you can't.
i may never become something great.
i may never help anyone.
but... the one thing- that always keeps me sane...
is my ability to destroy.
now observe: as i wreck my life over someone who will move on without me in a number of useless years... forgetting that they ever promised to love me for forever... and spend their life with me.
ah yes.
i can smell it burning. already.
see the smoke.
it will be bad.
all of it.
when i finish with it.
i'll love you.
they'll discover us.
and my life will become ruins.
of something great? hardly.
just me.
but wait. this brings us back to point one.
me.
i am the problem. in both my lives.
and each of them blame one another...
i love you.
you say you love me.
so... do it. love me.
like i love you.
i dare you.
to surrender one thing. for someone you "love"...
and i'll bet you... that you can't.